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Helloooooooo.

I just wanted to blog before I really really start on the things I need to do AKA school work. :))

So, as you can see on the right side of my blog, I've added a playlist. I just signed up for an account on Last.fm. :] I just wanted to put music here, or in any of my pages. I've got a lot of them. Facebook, Multiply, Myspace, Friendster, ADLSU, and all that. I've got Twitter and Plurk. :)) And oh, Plurkkkk is addicting. I think. :)) I've got Jason Mraz, Marie Digby, Faber Drive, Coldplay, Boys like Girls, Sara Bareilles, and Taylor Swift on my playlist. :] ♥ I know it's a lot but... I love the songs! :))

Last night, I've been surfing the net for... uh, everything about Twilight. :)) Addict much? Yes yes. I know. I'm Twilight obsessed, and proud of it. :)) I've watched videos, stole icons and avatars(lol), wallpapers and all that. I've made my own avatars as well. I know I should have been doing my school works but I wasn't. So, I was stupid about not using my free time well. It was a long weekend(4 days of no school), and I haven't done a single thing for school. I know, my fault. But anyway, after all these, I'm going to do school works.



So yeah. :] I hafta go. I should be doing what I need to do! Kk. Byyyyyyyeeeee.

Edward&Bella.

IF BELLA&EDWARD WON'T BE TOGETHER...........

UGH. I HATE.

So I'm in Team Edward, then.

O.C.D(Obsessive Cullen Disorder)!!! :)) In Eclipse, I just realized how so very understanding and patient Edward really is. Even more than Bella deserves. I was like, WOW. Speechless. Wtf can you ever find someone as that as Edward in this world? Too bad, Edward isn't real. :))

I hate that Bella asked Jacob to kiss her. BAH. I HATED BELLA FOR THAT. Stupeeeed. Shet. Shet. Now I get what my brother's girlfriend said about after reading Eclipse, I'll have doubts. Yeah, it wasn't the same anymore between Edward&Bella.

Jacob isn't that bad though. But maybe if I were Bella, I can't see Jacob as more than a friend. That sucks but that's the way it is. Edward is more boyfriend material. :)) I can't blame her though cos Edward left her once-- her darkest times-- and Jacob was there to be her personal sun. Of course, if I were in Bella's place too, I'd probably fall for Jacob too. But then again... it's foolish to tell someone you love him when you know you love another someone more. It's not fair. And it sucks to choose between two people you want to have but of course, of courseeeee, you really have to choose. I honestly believe you cannot possibly love two people at once. I mean, you cannot possibly be in love with two people at the same time. It's... it will be heartbreaking. Again, it won't be fair. The people involved will just get hurt in the process. Ugh.

But anyway still, AT LEAST BELLA CHOSE WISELY. Or that's what I'd like to think, cos choosing Edward is wiser and better. :))))))) She made a right decision I guess, considering who she can't really live without. Bella cannot live without Edward. Bella cannot bear to be without Edward. Edward makes her happy. Even if Jacob is her personal sun, even if she loves Jacob, it's not enough.. it's never enough to make her choose Jacob and leave Edward. She was miserable and in pain after she talked to Jacob about things. But she knows a pain more painful than that --- the pain she felt when Edward left her.

And so.. SHE CHOSE EDWARDDDD.

Is this happily ever after now? Well...

Imma have to wait for Breaking Dawn. Demmittttt, I hope their wedding will push through! BAH. And I wanna see Bella as a vampire. :)) But I dunno, I have a feeling they will still need to overcome some things -- danger and all the unexpected circumstances that may happen. So I still ahve doubts about their wedding and Bella being a vampire. I'M JUST GOING TO HAVE TO WAIT!

Bah August 4! The book release here is on August 4. So while waiting.... I'm just gonna re-read the books over and over and over. :))

Addicted much?
Oh yes.

I like Twilight best. New Moon was heartbreaking. Eclipse was... better than New Moon. I can't find a way to describe it though.
And I swear I cried while reading New Moon :)) That's how heartbreaking it is. Oh well.

It[Twilight] is exactly my brand of heroin.
I'm such a sucker for happy ever afters. :))

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Been here for the longggesttt time. Lol. I'm lazy updating my blog blogggg. I mostly update in my MySpace blog cos noone ever reads it. I don't even blog in my Multiply much.

Anyway, nothing much interesting has happened to me for the past weeks. Except for.. reading Twilight, New Moon, and Eclipse. Surely, Forks became my world during those times. Even after I put down the book, all I think about is Edward&Bella, and their story and the scenes. Haha. I know I'm late with all the hype but BS, who cares?! If you're a Twilighter, well, I'm a Twilighter too. That doesn't make us much different from each other, right? :p :))

Uhm. I don't have much to say. If I continue typing, I'd probably blab more about Twilight. Twilight. and more Twilight. Anyway, I can't wait for Breaking Dawn and the movie. BAH, why why why January 9? That's BS. Anyways, while waiting, I'm just going to keep myself busy by reading the books over and over again. And browse the internet about Twilight-related stuffs. Like this..



So. That would be all.

AND OH,

CALL ME BELLA.

=)) Haha!
It's not much far from my name. Charlene Belle. BELLA. See? Uhuh. :))

Ain't that bad, yo.

One week has passed! Dohhhh. So, I should've posted a blog last Saturday or Sunday but I got lazy. Yessss I'm a super lazy me. LOL. Huwat?! =))

So, last Tuesday was my birthday. But it felt like my birthday was the whole week. Friends kept greeting me a happy birthday everytime I go to school. =)) Lmao! That was fun. But the birthday itself wasn't much of a good day. Probably because nothing much has happened during the day. We(Neela, CJ and I) just went to MOA to kill time since we have a 3-hour break. And then DESPRIN(Principles of Design) changed the so-so mood of the day cos I was so excited for Cerisse! =)) HAHAHA. Shaks ah, nabanggit pa you here sa blog ko! LMAO! =)) Then our planned TriNoMa birthday celebration didn't push through since the people my parents invited couldn't come so we ate at Seaside instead. Good foodddd. I love good food! But the mood of the day continued. I can just say I wasn't ultimately happy. I thought my 17th was the suckiest day ever. LOL. Well not really, it's just that it's not a really good day I guess. Idk. :)) But I appreciate everything everyone had done to make it the happiest day possible though.

So ya, my Saturday celebration somehow paid for it anyway. Cossss, I SAW MY HIGH SCHOOL SUPERFRIENDS once again! Ohgosh, how I loved it. Haha, srsly! Though not everyone could come, it was nice cos I get to hang-out with them a bit, talk and catch up. Damn I missed them so! I wish I could like go out with them at least once a week! Haha but things need plans so.. sometimes it can't be possible. And I really appreciate those people who just dropped by to greet me a happy birthday. Or para lang mapaunlakan yung invitation ko sa kanila. Oh wow, that's... deep! Haha. So yeah, cos that was a Saturday and my invitation was such a short notice but they went anyway even if they have plans that night. Meant a lot, really. :] But I really hope we'd get together some time. Like, all of us! I really really wish to have a high school batch reunion before the year ends! IT'S A MUST EVERY YEAR! :)) At least for me. :] And.. only three of my college friends went cos most of them are from the south so they couldn't come. Laughtrip lang si Kevin Chua at Pem cos they really went! HAHA. Though they're north people, Fairview is still far y'know. :)) AND IT'S ALL BECAUSE OF THE FOOD. =)) Nyahaha! It was fun though.

On to a new topic. Last Thursday after my 8pm class, my parents and brother(2nd) went to fetch me. Just that time they told me that we're going to a family friend's wake. That family friend was my Kuya Raymond's(3rd) high school batchmate/bandmate and maybe best friend and an ex-bandmate(Pure Instinct). LOL. Labo na! [FLASHBACK] Back then, I was still in grade school, the families of every person included in their band went to our house just because and also to check how the band's doing and all. And so our family became friends with my brother's friend's family. Lol, is that right? =)) To the point that we even celebrated our Pre-New Year all together. That was fun! I can still remember that time, way back 2000 I think or 2001 before our family went to Cebu to spend the New Year. :)) [/END FLASHBACK] It was his dad's wake. And his dad passed away on my birthday! :o So I figured that was why my parents and my brother was so dressed up like they're going somewhere after. So yeah, meron nga! Haha. We went to Sanctuarium and I was so hungry since I didn't eat before my class! BOO-HOO. Luckily there's a mini-store inside and I ate siopao just to somehow ease my hungriness. Lol. Then we went up and I saw my brother's high school friends, my brother of course and his girl friend. One of my bro's HS friends was like, "O Cha! Ang laki niyo na ah! *points to other people with the same age as me or older*" And I realized that one person he pointed at was our family friend's brother. And it came to me.. "Oh no. Shocks. Makikita ko siya!" HAHAHA. So this is another story.

So, my brother's bestfriend has two younger brothers. The one I saw was his second younger brother. Since my brother's HS bandmates' family often come to our house then, we somehow get to know them a little. And my kuya's bestfriend(he was the vocalist of their HS band) has this brother(his third younger brother), a year older than me. Back in grade 4, I had a crush on him. LMAO! And he knew! Their AM class knew! Cos in our school, for grade school there were only two sections: AM and PM. So I was grade 4 and he was grade 5. GAH. :)) I didn't know HOW they knew! And my brother's HS friends as well as my brother knew. And they kept on pairing us then. Tuksuhan and all. Nakakahiya yun noh! Haha! I can still remember, omay! Haha. It was funny cos we never talked. Maybe once or twice when there were circumstances that were unavoidable like when my mom told me to show him where the telephone was or when he went to the house to drop by food or something, my mom usually told me to get it. LMAO. And that's not even called a real talk! :)) So I guess we were really shy =)) Or ako lang! Haha. Laughtrip! :)) And oohhhh! [FLASHBACK]I can still remember, before our school held an event where chosen students will perform and he was one of those students. My friends were there too! They were gon' dance! Then my friends were telling me that he was really good. Or at least that's what I can remember. Haha! Then on the day of the performance, he was like all over the place! LMAO. I was like, "wth?!" I was looking at him cos he was my friend's partner! Eh ayun, di ko na lang tinitingnan. Na-shy? Haha! Jokes amp na-peeling naman ako nun =)) Feel ko na-conscious eh. Haha! I told to my friend, "Bat ganon partner mo? Parang hindi alam steps." She said, "Ewan ko, nung practice naman okay siya e." [/END FLASHBACK] :)) I remember the last time I saw him was back in 2nd year HS. [FLASHBACK]They went to my brother's gig at Ratsky and he and his mom were there because at that time, Kuya X(his bro) was already part of my bro's band. We were on the same table! And I can't even look at him. My mom and his mom were just talking. Nakakatawa, swear! Then when we arrived home, my mom told me.. "Bakit di kayo nag-uusap nung kapatid ni *insert my bro's bestfriend name here*?" I said, "Ha? Ewan ko, di kami close e. Haha!" Pero I think at that time, I was thinking, "yak nakakahiya noh!" Haha! Then my mom said, "Natatawa kanina mommy niya sainyong dalawa. Nagkakahiyaan pa daw kayo. Sabi niya sakin, may gusto daw kasi yun dati sa'yo." NYAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! =)) Natawa na lang ako. [/END FLASHBACK]

Too many flashbacks, eh? Haha. So yeah, I'm right. The moment I entered the room, he was the first one I saw. =)))))) NYAHAHHAHA! I was like, "=o" HAHA! Homaygallywow. But of course I didn't let my reaction show! Haha. Then when my brother(3rd) told the story of how Kuya X's dad died and all, he mentioned about the brothers and he saw me kind of smiled a bit. It's not even called a smile! Haha. Well I reacted a bit and he saw that, and he reacted and smiled at me. Then started teasing me and told my mom and dad about me having a crush on Kuya X's brother before. Haha! And he started telling it to our family friends, those who weren't there in our lives yet during that time. Haha. Then he told me, "Alam ko na birthday gift ko sa'yo Cha! Papakilala kita!" LMAO! And he told it to Kuya X, his bestfriend! Kinilig naman! AMPOPO. But I know they were just tripping.. a bit! Cos with them, sometimes they can really get serious with tripping. Lol. Pero sobrang laughtrip yung itsura nilang dalawa na nagbubulungan and all =)) Lalo na yung itsura nila nung 'kinikilig' sila.I couldn't do anything about it! All I can say is, "Ugh nakakainis ka kuya!" =)) But yeah, it didn't happen. =)) Thhankkkkk God! My face would've looked funny if that happens. :)) Cos I prolly wouldn't know how to react. :)) I saw my former high schoolmate and now college schoolmate at the wake. Shocked ako. :)) I guess they're friends cos they're on the same village. Anyway, the day after my brother told me that Kuya X's brother got shy too. =)) LMAO. And oh, in case you're wondering how he looks now... :"> HAHAHA. Isang napakalaking SHET at OMG lang ang masasabi ko. :"> =))) Getitttt? Haha!

THIS IS A SO LONG POST. T_T Bah. This is what happens when I don't blog for a week. Lol.

Anyway, DESPRIN wasn't that bad. We had our first plate and it was kinda fun. Though I couldn't think of what to draw instantly, it was very challenging. LOL. I didn't get to finish my plate though. I just had it signed by my prof so em gonna pass them next week.

I just figured, the past keep coming to my present. And so my past becomes part of my present and I don't even ask for it. :))

Gah I'm laazy now. Bye.