Full of love, full of hate, full of hope, full of faith

You know what's been really ticking me off today? Hate.

The world is full of hate and haters. I don't get it. Don't people get tired of it? I mean, I 'hate' too but with others it's like they're pouring out their frustrations in life over some things like the WWW or they simply can't find anything to do with their lives.

Now wonder I get too stressed when I browse over those Plurks. Yes, it's Plurk. Sure it's their Plurk and I can always unfollow them but gah, I just the one who left and froze my Karma. But that's not exactly it, it's those people replying. Sometimes. Some are rude, some are annoyingly sarcastic, some are.. well, they just don't really float my boat. I guess. I've been thinking of deleting my account for how long already but thought how it would be too sayang since it's also been my home for quite a long time.

I never really cared before. But I don't know. I'm now even pissed at some people who doesn't know or don't care enough about their priorities or responsibilities. When you tell someone you're gonna work this out and at first you really agreed, sacrificed things for it and stuff, you do it. But then, there comes a time when there's this another thing that comes up and you take it and you take the other for granted. I understand that person though. But what I didn't get and still I DON'T get is whenever I contact and tell something, that person wouldn't even care to reply! For effin' one week and it really got to me. Makes the things I do harder. I don't like being left hanging. And when you get the chance to talk to the person who tells you stories about the whats and whys and you'd understand anyway. But then, tells you he needs to finish the things he needs to do first and he's starting to want to give up already because the work is hard and he's busy and SUPER BUSY, I mean, isn't that BS?! Like most of us aren't? Like I'm not? Like I'm not tired? Like the others doing the work aren't tired enough from their regular work?! When you want something, YOU MAKE TIME FOR IT. And not make excuses. And what more when school starts? Then that person will have lesser time for it now? What about the other students who had the time to do it?

Agh, I'm just too pissed with it. I guess you can't really try to get some people grow with you when you are and when you want to. Things are already harder than usual, but I wanna carry on, press on, go on because I want to and I'm happy with what's up with me right now.

And yes, the hate? The world is full of them, I know. It won't go away even if I wish it would. In the WWW, Twitter's peaceful for me so I like it better. And Tumblr, oh Tumblr, it's so full of love. :) That's why I love it there. Facebook is alright. :) But I've been liking life outside this net world. I've finally read my books, not all but at least two of them I've already finished. I wasn't on for 2 days because I got tired and sick. I've never been sick for quite a long time. So yeah. :]

When school comes, which is this 20th, I'm probably gonna get stuck again in this computer. Hello Junior year! =o I'll be graduating next year, hopefully. I'm keeping my fingers crossed. And I've now got to manage my time better. I know I will.

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking

I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep going

And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on

'Cause there's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb
-The Climb, Miley Cyrus

I love that song. :)

It's not how you start the race, it's how you finish it.

All we need is love, people. All we need is love.

Revived

Oh hai there! :)

I guess I left my blog in a negative note. Most of my previous posts were really negative. Always talking about problems and stuff. But all those are over and done with. It's not helping and being negative will never help at all! You may think it's probably because school's over and I have nothing to really stress about these days hence the positivity. Well yeah, that's one thing. But this summer is really the life-changing summer I ever had.

I am growing.

Personal growth. Financial growth. Spiritual growth.

All there.

Breakthrough for this year. :)

I have learned a lot about life in general. Everyday, I learn a LOT more than the learning I get in school. And I'm really thankful for that. For the first few months of this year, I was surrounded by negativity. I was so emotionally, physically, mentally drained. Plus myself being negative wasn't helping at all. It was just all a mess for me. But all is over and done, past is past.

Now, everything changed. My mindset, my purposes, my goals, my relationships with family, with God, and just about everything. I'm happy that I'm this one step closer to my dreams. I got the seed and I gotta sow it. Sow the seed of your dream. Like I've read from Bo Sanchez's blogs. It's during this time that I see my future clearer now that little by little I try to think about what I really really want. Law of attraction. I always knew that I'm the kind of person who dream BIG a lot. I wanted a lot of things. I want to travel the world and go places. I wanna study again! Academy of Art University anyone? University of the Arts London? I wanna see Aurora Borealis! I wanna help people. I wanna be completely happy. I wanna buy my OWN car, own laptop, iPod, DSLR, smartphone using my OWN money. I wanna buy the things I want using my own money and working hard for it and not depending on my parents to give it to me. I was never that kind of person who depends everything to her parents. I was never too spoiled. I told myself, I'm gonna study and concentrate on my craft so when I graduate, I get a good-paying job that I love to do and so I can have those things. I still will. I still want to prove something to people and to myself. Art is what I generally live for and it will always be my first love.

But you know what they say, when there's opportunity you gotta grab it. And I did. We did. What I'm also really really glad about is me and my brothers are closer than ever. It's really good to see the whole family working together. And I've met new wonderful people whom I learn a lot from.

Some Most people would actually think this seed is easy to sow. It's not. At first I thought it was, seeing it from the outside. But it's really different when it's you playing the game than just being in the audience watching. Most people would actually think negatively of this seed. But you know, I don't care anymore. They're not the ones who are gonna feed me when I'm hungry anyway. This is real hard work.

And what really warms my heart is that we're closer to God more than EVER. All these challenges are just challenges. Trials we gotta walk ABOVE on. We gotta press on when it's turning us down. And I'm not pressing on all by myself because my whole family's behind me helping me press on through the challenges of life.

You know just a few weeks after school ended, it feels like I'm the same old but brand new person. It's a different feeling. And my mindset has changed.. in a good way and also which I think everyone must have. Positivity.

Hear the sunshine. See the sunshine.

By the way, last Sunday I attended the morning and evening service of Cornerstone Church in Bulacan and boy, really, I am revived. We're Catholics but my brothers always attend their service because we serve their sound system. I've always wanted to go with them then especially during those times I was sooo down and negative. But I don't know, I wasn't able to not until last Sunday. I woke up early to go with them and their guest speaker was a 24-year-old Australian(Fil-Aus) Pastor, which was really good-looking btw haha. Before we went back home, Pastor Fred introduced us to him and he prayed over us. He doesn't know anything about us, just the basics, but coming from him he said before the year ends, we're going to be debt-free. And I was just wowza! That IS our goal. And we know we're on the right track. And here comes the evening service, I went again so as my parents. Oh boy, I cried. Really. My brother and I cried. My mom was holding back her tears. Lol. But you know, it felt really great. It's those times when I really feel His presence. I'm the type of person who doesn't want people seeing her cry but yes I did cry with my mom and dad beside me. Lol. What made me start crying was the video the pastor showed, there's this Australian.. oh okay, I found the video. I'm gonna show it to you guys. Hope it inspires you as it had inspired me.



And I love singing praise songs. They sang Hosanna during the morning service and that's one of my favorites!

Oh hai, God is so good. :)

"If I fail, I try again, and again, and again..."
-Nick Vujicic