Revived

Oh hai there! :)

I guess I left my blog in a negative note. Most of my previous posts were really negative. Always talking about problems and stuff. But all those are over and done with. It's not helping and being negative will never help at all! You may think it's probably because school's over and I have nothing to really stress about these days hence the positivity. Well yeah, that's one thing. But this summer is really the life-changing summer I ever had.

I am growing.

Personal growth. Financial growth. Spiritual growth.

All there.

Breakthrough for this year. :)

I have learned a lot about life in general. Everyday, I learn a LOT more than the learning I get in school. And I'm really thankful for that. For the first few months of this year, I was surrounded by negativity. I was so emotionally, physically, mentally drained. Plus myself being negative wasn't helping at all. It was just all a mess for me. But all is over and done, past is past.

Now, everything changed. My mindset, my purposes, my goals, my relationships with family, with God, and just about everything. I'm happy that I'm this one step closer to my dreams. I got the seed and I gotta sow it. Sow the seed of your dream. Like I've read from Bo Sanchez's blogs. It's during this time that I see my future clearer now that little by little I try to think about what I really really want. Law of attraction. I always knew that I'm the kind of person who dream BIG a lot. I wanted a lot of things. I want to travel the world and go places. I wanna study again! Academy of Art University anyone? University of the Arts London? I wanna see Aurora Borealis! I wanna help people. I wanna be completely happy. I wanna buy my OWN car, own laptop, iPod, DSLR, smartphone using my OWN money. I wanna buy the things I want using my own money and working hard for it and not depending on my parents to give it to me. I was never that kind of person who depends everything to her parents. I was never too spoiled. I told myself, I'm gonna study and concentrate on my craft so when I graduate, I get a good-paying job that I love to do and so I can have those things. I still will. I still want to prove something to people and to myself. Art is what I generally live for and it will always be my first love.

But you know what they say, when there's opportunity you gotta grab it. And I did. We did. What I'm also really really glad about is me and my brothers are closer than ever. It's really good to see the whole family working together. And I've met new wonderful people whom I learn a lot from.

Some Most people would actually think this seed is easy to sow. It's not. At first I thought it was, seeing it from the outside. But it's really different when it's you playing the game than just being in the audience watching. Most people would actually think negatively of this seed. But you know, I don't care anymore. They're not the ones who are gonna feed me when I'm hungry anyway. This is real hard work.

And what really warms my heart is that we're closer to God more than EVER. All these challenges are just challenges. Trials we gotta walk ABOVE on. We gotta press on when it's turning us down. And I'm not pressing on all by myself because my whole family's behind me helping me press on through the challenges of life.

You know just a few weeks after school ended, it feels like I'm the same old but brand new person. It's a different feeling. And my mindset has changed.. in a good way and also which I think everyone must have. Positivity.

Hear the sunshine. See the sunshine.

By the way, last Sunday I attended the morning and evening service of Cornerstone Church in Bulacan and boy, really, I am revived. We're Catholics but my brothers always attend their service because we serve their sound system. I've always wanted to go with them then especially during those times I was sooo down and negative. But I don't know, I wasn't able to not until last Sunday. I woke up early to go with them and their guest speaker was a 24-year-old Australian(Fil-Aus) Pastor, which was really good-looking btw haha. Before we went back home, Pastor Fred introduced us to him and he prayed over us. He doesn't know anything about us, just the basics, but coming from him he said before the year ends, we're going to be debt-free. And I was just wowza! That IS our goal. And we know we're on the right track. And here comes the evening service, I went again so as my parents. Oh boy, I cried. Really. My brother and I cried. My mom was holding back her tears. Lol. But you know, it felt really great. It's those times when I really feel His presence. I'm the type of person who doesn't want people seeing her cry but yes I did cry with my mom and dad beside me. Lol. What made me start crying was the video the pastor showed, there's this Australian.. oh okay, I found the video. I'm gonna show it to you guys. Hope it inspires you as it had inspired me.



And I love singing praise songs. They sang Hosanna during the morning service and that's one of my favorites!

Oh hai, God is so good. :)

"If I fail, I try again, and again, and again..."
-Nick Vujicic