2 days before the 1st of January.

A post? from me? Tagal na noh? And sobrang wala nang bumibisita dito sa blog kong to. haha. :p I guess I'm gonna start from first step again. I'm too busy to go blogging. But anyway, 3 months to go before March, before we graduate. I think this is mostly the sentiments you hear or get from graduating senior students. :p But, oh well, you have also been here! :p

While I have been away, there had been so many things that happened. I mean a lotttt.

Gusto kong palitan yung domain name ko dito sa blogspot. Sawa na eh. Pero eto kasi yung site na nakalink sa mga bumibisita sakin non. So, maybe not. Whaddyathink? (if ever i have people reading this. hahaha.) Some of those people have made it big in the blogging world. Mainly because they did not stop blogging, their posts are interesting and people enjoy their sites.

Being away from the computer.. Well I mean, I use my 'puter but not a lot like before -- when I was still an active blogger. I use the comp for projects, homeworks, checking mails, playing online games(Huntsville, Diner Dash, Carrie the Caregiver, etc.), Y!Messenger and that's it. I don't do online websites or even visit other's blogs like before. But I did offline websites. Hahaha. It was a project for our computer class -- HTML. I did a whole bunch of projects and I also earned a lot from it for 2 quarters. Cool? Not. I spent sleepless nights and even risking of not going to school one day. Yeah, I did, just to finish their projects. :) But anyway, that's fine. I agreed to do it for them. And in exchange, they'd pay me for my hard work. :) Naks. But yeahhh, it was hard work. I even cried, deymmmit. :p But anyway, that's through now. We have Computer Programming for 3rd and 4th quarter. Deymmittt. All of us were like, "whaa?!" It's making our head hurt -- A LOT! :p But we have no choice but to get through that course with our "the-hs-know-what" teacher. :p

Anyway, I gotta leave it here.

BELATED MERRY CHRISTMAS! :)
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
MAY WE START THE 2007 RIGHT! :)

oh! I got my Starbucks 2007 Planner! :) Ahhhhlaavveettt! :D

Why?

Bakit ngayon pa? Ugh.

Bakit ngayong 4th yr pa?

for 3 years, andun ako. tas ngayon lang?

shet.

UP and Ateneo.

Uy magcomment naman kayo. Hehe. What I meant about dun sa post ko last time, is yung blogger commenting not the haloscan commenting. :) angel, salamat na rin. hehe ;p

Ayun, I have a lot to tell you guys about. A lot of things-- interesting and fun things -- happened this week. Hehe. Let's start with..

PHILIPPINE YOUTH CONGRESS IN INFORMATION TECHNOLOGY -- Y4IT @ UP Diliman

Last Wednesday and Friday, we went to the Philippine Youth Congress in Information Technology. It was a 3-day event held on Sept. 13-15,2006 at 3 locations. The UP Theatre, UP Film Institute and Bahay ng Alumni. The main event was on UP Theatre, the UP Film Institute for panel discussion and different school paper presentation, and the UP Bahay ng Alumni for Y4IT Sponsors Exhibit. It was a first time for the 9 of us excluding my computer teacher. Y4IT is in its fourth year of gathering the largest number of senior high school, college students, professionals and enthusiasts in I.T. from all over the Philippines. Some who went even came far from Zamboanga, Mindoro, Cagayan, Lucena, Nueva Ecija, Nueva Vizcaya, Batangas, etc. We paid a fee of 500php each for the registration per day. It covers the morning snack, afternoon snack and the Y4IT Congress Souvenir Kit.

Their featured topics are:

Ubiquitous and Pervasive Computing

Digital Photography

Network Services

Search Engines

Gaming

Mobile Computing & Embedded Systems

Next Generation Gadgets

3D Modeling, Rendering & Animation

Software Engineering & Best Practices

Mobile Games

Interactivity Design

Life in Call Centers

Voice over IP (VOIP)

Technology Based Entrepreneurship

Podcasting/Vodcasting

Bioinformatics

3G Phone Technology

Blogging

Intellectual Property

Work Opportunities and Work Readiness

Success Stories in ICT

I can say most are college students with courses in line with IT like Computer Science, Computer Engineering, etc. I don't know if there were other senior high school students there because most of them really looked like college students. Lol. ;p

We had fun on the first day of the Y4IT. Though there were times that I slept because I got sleepy. ;p The topics that interest me most was the Digital Photography, Next Generation Gadgets, 3D Modeling, Rendering & Animation, Podcasting/Vodcasting, and Mobile Games.

I liked the Podcasting/Vodcasting topic because there was an invited speaker from Apple and he showed us in his powerpoint presentation(everyone presented with powerpoint), the newest apple gadgets coming up. There was the iPod nano 2, the new ipod shuffle, nike + ipod nano, etc. He also showed us softwares of apple like the Quartz Maker(I don't know if it was "Maker" but I remembered it has Quartz in it, lol), iLife, iTunes, etc. I like the ipod nano 2. I wanna have one when it comes here. I dunno if it's already here but anyway, it now has color skins unlike the 1st nano, it's only available in colors white and black. It's more like an iPod mini but make the mini to a nano. Gets? ;p It has blue, green, pink, white or was that silver?, and black skins. It has 2gb, 4gb and 8gb. Here's the pic of the colored iPod Nanos.

The iPod shuffle is small already but make it a lot smaller. Here's a picture:


A lot smaller. But I still like the ipod nano better because the shuffle has no screen. Lol. ;p

The iPod. Well, it plays movies, tv shows, games and music. Damn Apple, when would you stop? haha. ;p It has 30gb and 80gb space. Whoa, with the 80gb space. Here's the pic of the 3 iPods.

I liked his presentation of the Quartz Maker or Editor. It's so cool. It makes animation a lot easier. Too bad, it's only for Mac computers. And the Aperture software, I know it's for professional digital photographers but I don't have to be one to have one, do I? It still edits photos which I do. Hehe. But too bad, it's only for Mac users too. If only I have the money to buy the MacBook or iBook. Lol. But I don't have the money. Next time na lang, I really don't need it at this time anyway. I'd buy it if I badly need it. ;p

We did not attend the Thursday event since we weren't looking forward on any topic that day. But we did on Friday, the last day with only 4 of us went excluding our teacher. We were actually late because our teacher was late. Lol. ;p Our computer teacher got a seat at the UP Theater but we didn't because all the seats were taken. So we went to the UP Film Institute. It was the same anyway because it was video casted from UP theatre to the Film Institute until the 3rd speaker -- Francis Escudero. He's really good in speaking. He'd make you really listen to him and it wasn't boring when he was the one speaking. And when students ask him questions, it's like there's this hidden book in his brain and his brain just quickly finds the answer in just a pop! Haha. ;p Ang galing lang. The organizers asked him not to involve any political craps and GMA in his speech but he apologized from the start if he can't stand to say something about politics and GMA. ;p He certainly didn't stand it. Lol. We were up front, seated at the back of the guests/speakers. And then the film institute moved on to their own program after that so we went to UP Theater instead since it was getting boring there. We were all waiting for the topic 3D Modeling, Rendering and Animation, but sadly, :( we didn't get to catch it. Or even, there was none. Yayness. That was the topic I was waiting for since the 1st day tapos ayun, wala pa. Tssss. ;p But anyway, it was fun. We went to the Bahay ng Alumni to get some brochures of the products. We went to see laptops and other stuff. Super cool. =D Hehe.

We ate at Mcdo again just like on the 1st day. We rode by jeep so many times which I really enjoyed. Because I rarely ride the jeepney. What I mean by that is I'm not used to riding a jeepney often and too many times in a day. I do ride the jeep but not so often. Hehe.

We had a lot of freebies like bags, ballpens and t-shirts. I had a cap because on the last day, the bags were out of stock so they only had caps. Arrgg. My classmates didn't bother to wake me up when they went to get their kits so they got their bags. And so, they got 2 bags from the event. I really wanted the orange or the yellow one because on the 1st day, they gave the green ones. Waahh. But anyway, it was okay. I had no choice. ;p

This post is really a long one. So I apologize if I bore you. ;p

ATENEO. ACET -- SEPTEMBER 16, 2006 SATURDAY PM SESSION.

Ayan! ACET. First, Niki asked me to call her and so I did. She said we'll meet at Teriyaki Boy near MSA at Katips. So ayun, I went there. I left home, at around 10:30am and I arrived at around 11am. Di pa masyadong traffic. Since I already had my brunch, I just ate California Maki while she ate t-boy's chicken teri. We were waiting for AJ who arrived 48 years later. Lol. ;p We told her not to eat anymore since we're going to be late. But she insisted even just a tuna sashimi. Lol. So she did. And after, we left. It was hard to get a cab so we walked! It was so hot and AJ had her jacket on. Lol. We went to the overpass, walked and tada, we're at Ateneo. Niki brought us to the GS Bldg. But our exam was at the HS Bldg. We asked people there if they know where the HS Bldg. was, but they don't know where it is. So we asked again, and fortunately, they know where. I know where it is but from there I don't know where to go. They said, the bldg. was way far from there and it isn't walking distance. So we rode a tricycle. Traffic na! Tensed na kami kasi we thought we're going to be late. It was 12:45 then and our exam is at 1:00. So I said, "Tara. Lakarin na natin to!" Ayan, takbo.. takbo.. takbo! Haha. We saw Esther Seo and asked her where the bldg. was. So ayun, we continued running.. and running.. and running. Until we got there. Whew! Fortunately, the examinees were still lining up. We split up with Niki cause she's on room 5 while AJ and I are on rm. 32 and 36, respectively. ;p AJ and I lined up on the wrong line. Lol. Fortunately, again, we saw our batchmates! Haha. Ayun, nakisingit kami. We were with Billy, Raiza, Jamila, Jhem, Bobby, Loyde, and Hong Ki. Hong Ki and I are room mates. Ayan. Edi CR muna bago ng exam.

English - 100 items. Math - 65 items. Abstract reasoning, vocabulary, logical reasoning(thanks eri sa pagturo! hehe), numerical ability, etc. are usually at about 25-30 items all for 10 minutes. Except for the numerical ability and the other exam, for 30 minutes. Hate ko talaga problem solving. Sheehhet yan.

English was easy. There was even an essay. Di ko kasi alam na meron e. The question goes something like: "College studies can be difficult? What are the qualities that students should have to be successful in college?" Ayun. Introduction muna ng konti tapos I said, passion, drive, determination, -- of course, you should have the drive and determination to be good at what you do especially if the course you took up is what you really like. At pag may passion ka, things you do would not seem so difficult kasi you love what you're doing e. It doesn't seem like work, it seems like having fun because you're doing what you love--, faith in oneself and in God, hope -- never give up so easily, being responsible sa sarili at sa studies, listen to the advices your parent's say so that college wouldn't be so difficult since they already been and experienced how college is, confidence and belief sa sarili. Ayun. Tama naman dba?

Yung math, it would have been easy for me if I studied more. Danngg! I thought it would be pure problem solving just like UP. And they said, ACET is a lot harder and is the hardest of all entrance exams. But for me, ACET was easier than UPCAT. =o

But anyway, I hope I pass. Either UP or Ateneo. I just hopeeee. And next is USTET, DLSU-CET, and CSB. ;p Wish me luck!

We missed quizzes when we went to the IT Congress, so we have 4 quizzes all lined up -- Math, Eco, Filipino, Physics. Good luck sakin! hehe. ;p

So, ayun lang. Byebye! :) later.

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Ayun. Tinanggal ko yung haloscan ko. Kasi nga yung sabi ni Hanynany. hehe. Kaya lang ang problem pag kiniclick mo yun, di sya magoopen in new window, magoopen ulit sa link nung post kong yun tapos sa dulo, saka merong Comment: Post a comment. Nakakainis. Ewan ko pano gawin yung pagicclick mo, magnnew window na sya. Wahh. Anyone, help me?

Btw, sa mga Montessorians, meron na tayong forums! click! O dba, asenso! Haha. For OLGM Bonafide students and alumni. =) And watch out for the upcoming website of the HSSC. Yeyy! Haha.

Ayun, ayan nanaman ako, nagblog nanaman instead na iprint yung project ko sa English. Gawshshh. Pero at least, I already finished my 2 homeworks! I hope this attitude goes on. Haha. I should be more hmm.. masipag. I dont know what's the english of masipag!! I forgot. Tsk. Why would I speak in english anyway? Haha. Wala lang! Para naman makabawi ako sa ranking ko. Maitaas ko man lang ulit ng konte. Wah.

Later. I have more rantings. As in moreeee. About school.

O sige, nuff said. :) bye bye!

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Yoyoyooy. ;p Bagong layout nanaman na I got from blogskins.com. Nagkakaproblema kasi sa haloscan dun sa past template kaya ayun. Ngayon, pwede na kayo magcomment sakin gamit ang Haloscan! Yeyyy! Hehe. Click nyo lang yun sa baba na "c0me on, let me hear you out." ;p I love this layout. Grabe, dami nang magagaling talaga na web and graphic designers. Walang-wala na ko. Waa. Hehe. Okay lang yan, challenge and improvement. :D Pero ngayon, busy kasi sa school. Walang ganong time e. Tama muna tong low profile muna, simple lang at pablog blog. Hehe.

Bukas, we're going to watch El Filibusterismo at UP Theatre. 6:30am dapat andun na! Grabe aga. Absent ako kanina e. Games lang naman meron. Wala namang klase. Di naman ako maglalaro. Pero parehong sa volleyball at basketball may game ang Faith. Nanalo kami sa volleyball kasi forfeit sila. Hehe. Sa basketball, talo. Freedom won. :) Ayuun.

Sige, bounceee na ko. =D
``
I wanna be your lake, or your bay
And any problems that you have I wanna wash 'em away
I wanna be your sky, so blue and high
And everytime you think of me I wanna blow your mind
I wanna be your air, so sweet and fair
So when you feel that you can't breathe, ma I'll be there
I wanna be your answer, all the time
When you see how I put your life before mine
With no question
-take it from here.

Step up, step by step.

3rd runner-up kami sa Cheerdance competition. Ayun okay lang naman for most of us. Ang badtrip lang para samin na nagexert ng effort para sa batch namin at somehow di mapahiya pag nagperform, e yung mga taong sumali dahil andun yung friend nila at yung mga sobrang pasaway. Simpleng hand movements at formation, hindi masunod at magawa. Magulo. Ang lousy sumayaw. Di man lang ibigay kahit yung kaya nilang ibigay. Effort man lang. Pero dammnn, wala kaming makitang ganun e. Sumali para masabing dancer sila, hindi naman uma-attend ng practice. Dapat, even before they joined, they should've realized that being there and being a dancer isn't just being one and said to be one. Tama ba? Gets? Along with it is discipline and responsibility. In the first place, dapat alam nila yung kakayahan nila. Kung alam nilang kaya nilang gawin yun at kahit papano kayang mag-exert ng effort man lang, edi go sila. Kung hindi, bakit pa sila sumali? Yun lang nakakasama ng loob e. For 4 years, kasali ako sa cheerdancers. Eto, yung last year namin, di man lang namin nabigay at naipakita yung pwede naming ibigay at ipakita. For some certain reasons. Wala man lang disiplina at cooperation. Badtrip. Pero yung sa mga okay naman and alam kong alam naman nila kung sinu-sino sila, tama si Niki, basta na-enjoy natin yung pagperform natin, ok na yun. Pero pagtapos talaga namin nagperform, alam namin, sabog kame. ;p Ako, di ako masaya sa kinalabasan. Pero ganun talaga e. Last hours and minutes kami. Wala na kaming magagawa dun. ;p Galing namin, wala man lang kaming naipanalo para sa batch namin for 4 years. ;p Talaga naman. Eto na yung shot na yun e, di pa grinab. Sheeeyyt. Sabay-sabay kasi lahat ng business. Mga inaasikasong mas importante. To think na 11 days lang kami nagpractice, at least naman may naipakita at nabuo kami. Kahit di namin na-execute ng maayos. Congrats sa Sophomores. Pero alam nyo.. dapat.. haha ;p Congrats sa Juniors! Nagulat kaming mga seniors sa kinalabasan nun e. ;p

Babawi na lang kami sa Dance Competitions at Dance Concert(hopefully) sa end ng year. Next week na daw ang start ng dance club.. training and stuff.

Always busy and still busy. Sana maka-catch ako sa lahat. At sana step by step, mabalik ko yung dating ako na masipag. ;p Hehe. At sana bumalik ako sa top10. Hopefully. Haay. Hopefully. Bumaba kasi ako ng 4 places. Top14 na ko e. Grabe. Grabe talaga. Inaamin ko naman, kasi ang tamad ko talaga nung 1st qtr. Nung 3rd year, hataw ako nyan. Sa recitation, aral talaga, tapos lahat okay. E ngayon.. shoot! Madami pa kong late. Isang late na lang, dude, guidance ako. Kaya im trying my best na hindi maging late. Pero ngayon, wala pa naman. Sana tuloy-tuloy lang. Sana umayos-ayos naman ako.

Hopefully.. hopefully. And I mean that, I really hope that. And with that hope, I work. Hard. And if hard isn't enough, i'd work. Harder. and even harder. Hopefully.. hopefully. I can do it. Manage to do it. Stick with it. Live by that hope. Because I know I can do it. I can do better with what I am doing right now and before. I just need to find myself back. After everything.. after everything that happened.. =)

I know I'd be able to pick the pieces back together, be whole, I just need time. It takes time to. And i'd do it, step by step.

``

di ka ba napapagod, o di kaya'y nagsasawa, sa ating mga tampuhan walang hanggang katapusan? napahid nang mga luha, damdamin at puso'y tigang, wala nang maibubuga. wala na kong maramdaman. kung tunay tayong nagmamahalan, ba't di tayo magkasunduan?..

Comments.

Ayaw gumana nung Haloscan sa template kong to. Ewan ko bakit. Hmpph. Kaya for now, comment muna kayo dun sa blogger commenting. ;p

Uy pehrehhhh, astig Motorola V3x at Moto SLVR. Mura pa. Nice. ;p
Sa Thursday na ang cheering, Goodluck samin! =o Sige sige. Yun lang ang sasabihin ko. Di kasi to talaga post kaya ayun. hehe ;p

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Last Cheer Dancing Competition for a Senior & Cheering Practices.

So tired. My whole body hurts. We've been dancing since like the school year started. Lol. Well not really. Since like what I have told you in my previous post. After our Linggo ng Wika, ayun, nagstart na kami magpractice for cheering. Nakakapagod. Ang sakit ng katawan ko. May pasa ako sa knees, likod, at sa may ulo at sa gilid ng ulo. Bakit? Takteng baby freeze at headstand yan. Pero okay lang. Last year na namin to, at sana manalo kami. Sana lang. Sana ma-execute namin ng maayos ang cheerdance namin at sabay-sabay kami. Kasi kung oo, maganda ang kalalabasan ng routine namin.

Sa Thursday na ang opening ng sportsfest at ng competition sa cheer dance. Good luck samin! :)

Parang gusto ko bumalik sa blog world. I mean, andito ako, pero gusto ko maghanap ng host. Kaya lang, nagdadalawang isip din ako. Kasi, like before, someone hosted me but then, our internet connection got disconnected and I was a bit busy. Pano pa kaya ngayon na sobrang busy? Pero kasi once a week naman ako nagbblog e, depende lang. Baka di rin ako makapagblog at di ko maayos yung site ko. Eto na nga lang e, d ko pa maayos. D pa ko nakakagawa ng layout ko ulit. Sayang naman dba?

As of now, let's see na lang. Kung makapagblog ako dito weekly or basta di tatagal ng more than one month or months. Pwede na. At kung may gustong mag-host *ahem*ahem*.. haha. ;p

sige sige. =)

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After, Tired and Busy.

2 months had passed and after 2 months of not writing here, I am writing here again in my blog. ;p Well, I miss blogging. I missed blogging. And my online friends. Everything in the web world. It's not that I haven't been online for such a looonnggg time. It's just that I didn't get to talk and communicate with you guys whenever I am online, which is rare for the past months because our DSL got cut. Adik daw kasi kami sa net. ;p But nowwww, our dsl's backk!!! But still, it doesn't mean that I'd get to post here often. It still doens't mean that I'd get to do stuffs that I used to do back then like blog hopping.. reading blogs .. commenting.. making friends.. thinking of stuffs to put on my site... thinking of applying for someone to host me... thinking of buying my own web domain. Haha.

It's been a lot busy lately. I mean, real busy. I've been practicing dance non-stop for the past weeks. Nung SC Campaign, may dance number. Konting pahinga mga 4 weeks something... 1 month na rin. Tas ayun, dance number naman for the Linggo ng Wika which was held last Friday August 25, 2006. Those dance practices along with the practices for our Sabayang Pagbigkas. Tas ngayon, Cheering practice naman. Shooottt! Dapat sasali yung dance club sa Skechers pero our president decided not to, since we were dancing non-stop. Bugbog na bugbog na katawan namin e. Pero, it's fun. Kung kelan naman Senior na ko, saka naman ako nagiging active sa mga extra curricular. Bat di pa nung 2nd year or nung 1st year noh? Di pa kasi ako lumalabas nun sa shell na pinagtataguan ko e. ;p

Anyway, ayun.. alam nyo bang nanalo ko for Auditor? Yeyy, ayan alam nyo na. Haha. My brother's band played nung Miting de Avance namin. Syempre, proud ako. Kasi nakita ng whole student body sila kuya tumutugtog. Na-astigan pa sila. Parang, "Wow, pehreh, kuya ko yang mga yan." Sarap lang ng feeling. Hehe. First time atang nangyari yun e. Nagkaron ng band sa MDA sa ol? Ayun. Masaya lang. Masaya din ako nung nakita kong masaya yung mga ka-party ko at yung kabilang party at yung students at yung teachers. =)

Di ko pa napapalitan tong layout ko. Nakakatamad gumawa e. Nga pala, nasa youtube kami(IV-Faith)! Yung Sabayang Pagbigkas namin nung Friday. Yung intermission numbers na nakakatuwa ;p At yung iba pang Sabayan ng dalawa pang sections sa 4th year at 3-hope. Eto yung trailer: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Yf2ewG8lrmw In-upload ng classmate ko. ;p

Tas yung iba, tingnan nyo sa list ng videos nito, http://www.youtube.com/profile_videos?user=KiiBeeN
Hehe. Wala lang , share lang. =)

Sige, laters na lang ulit. Let's start our day with a SMILE. And everything will be fine. =)

*kingdom hearts.*
*the basis of victory is not by ranking the first, but by learning the most.*

Wudjubeliv?

Oiii! Wudyubeliv? Sheeeezzz. Online ako ulit! Yayness. Nakakamiss din ang pagbblog. D nako nakakapagblog at nakakapag keep in touch sa mga online friends ko. Ayun, July na bukas! Tapos na ang June! Pero sobrang hectic na ng aming mga iskeydyul. Sobrang daming quizzes, tests, reports! Halos wala na kong pahinga e. Every Sunday na lang. Pero cramming pa rin. E may review pa kami every Saturday for the college entrance exams. Tipong 1st week pa lang nung school, cramming kami sa deadline ng UPCAT! Grabe. Pero aliw naman. Hehe. Saya. :) Tas ngayon naman, Student Council campaign. Next week na election. July 7 to be exact. July 5 ang classroom campaign at July 6 ang Miting de Avance. 2 parties: CURVE - Citizens Undertaking Responsibility and Vying for Excellence. VOICE - Vigilant OLGM Individuals Committed to Excellence. Sobrang wala sa plano ko na tumakbo. I mean, meron siguro pero hindi ko na-picture na magkaibang parties kami nila AM(CURVE party nila). Mga superfriends ko pa naman yung mga andun. Napagusapan nung 3rd year pa kami, dapat isa ako sa mga campaign manager pag d nila ako kinuha na tumakbo. Tas sa VOICE party ako tatakbo for Auditor. Yung party namin, pilit lang yan e. Kasi, walang gustong lumaban sa party nila AM. Malakas kasi. Si AM, eversince 1st year nasa SC na yan as year level representative at nung 3rd year, SC Secretary sya. Yung kasama ko sa party ko, 2 lang ang superfriends ko, yung iba friendly friends. Haha :p Pero when Sharmaine accepted the offer to compete with CURVE, she asked people kung pwedeng tumakbo or who wants to run for a position. She asked me para maging auditor. Ako, I accepted the offer para lang sa experience. Malaman ko kung pano yung takbo ng campaign, pano yung feeling na nagsasalita ka na, "I'm Charlene Bautista running for the position of Auditor." "Why Auditor?" or "Why should you vote for me?" And since it's our Senior year na naman, I wanna go for the fun and experience. Kahit di manalo, ayos lang basta I knew the feeling of running for SC. Hindi yung pag college nako, "Ay sayang, d ako tumakbo for SC. Di ko tuloy nalaman pano yung feeling nun." I don't wanna have regrets. I'm trying to make the most out of my senior year.

Kanina, edi namigay na kami ng stickers and button pins. Grabe yung sticker, katumbas ng limang masking tapes. Tas iba ibang color, heart-shaped yung akin. Each of us sa party, merong ganun. 2,400 stickers ata yun. Nammroblema nga kami pano yun mauubos kasi sobrang dami. Tapos may button pins. Yung 4th year representatives at President pa lang namin ang may ganun. Yung iba, sa Monday pa. Tapos may tatlong tarpaulins. Sa bawat room may tarpaulin/poster na nandun yung line up namin. Nag-away away pa nga sila dun e. Actually hindi naman away, nagreklamo lang yung iba sa CURVE. Kasi ang usapan, isang banner or poster lang bawat room(e dalawa yung amin, isa yung andun yung sc president namin at yung isa yung line up ng party namin) at dapat ang pinakamalaki lang e cartolina size. Sabi ni AJ(isa sa mga Pussykittens Manika :p), "E sir! Usapan cartolina lang e! E hindi naman cartolina yan!" Tas tatlo ang umiyak ngayong araw. Si Francel(VP ng VOICE), AM(PRES. ng CURVE) at si Boks(PRO ng VOICE). Si Francel naiyak sya kasi feeling nya nadadamay kami dun sa awayan nila. Yung sa banners, tarpaulins and other stuff. Kasi hindi talaga ganun ang traditional way ng pag-campaign nung mga former SC's. Lahat made by the party. From the stickers, yung sinusulatan lang ng names. Yung posters sa room, computerized line-up lang. At walang mga button pins. Kaya pinagtatalunan nila yun kasi hindi daw fair para sa kanila. Si AM, nappressure daw sya. Si Boks, ewan ko, nagdrama. Haha. Friendly competition nga, sabi nila. After everything, at the end of the day, lahat naman kami friends pa rin e. Classmates. Kaya ayun.

Ayan. Change topic. 1st day high. :p Masaya kasi makikita ko nanaman ang aking mga friends. At Seniors na kami. Sobrang bilis talaga. IV-FAITH ang section ko at glad naman ako dun. Kasi eversince first year, nasa first section ako at classmate ko na karamihan dun for four or three years. Pero sobrang badtrip ko nung nakita ko yung list ng mga classmates ko dahil andun ang epal na unggoy! Yung jerk, safety-king at asshole. Pinagppray ko pa naman nung summer na sana hindi ko sya kaklase. Pero whatever, kaklase ko si asshole e. Wala akong magagawa dun. Ok lang, andun naman sila AM, Ryan, at iba pa e. Kasi alam nila ginawa nung ahole na yun. Si AM sobrang inis sa unggoy na yun e. Hay. I guess I just have to live with it through out my senior year. Pareho lang rin naman, di ko rin sya papansinin. Gaya nung third year so ayun. Mas dumami friends ko at mas dumami ang kakilala ko. Masaya.

Pero hanggang dun lang yun. Sa school ako masaya kasi kasama ko friends ko. Napapatawa nila ako, napapawala nila lahat ng worries at frustrations ko, nagagawa nilang ipakalimot sa kin ang mga problema ko kahit sandali lang. Pero syempre sa school, may pressure at stress din. May mga worries at frustrations din. Mga cramming. Pero wala nang mas sasakit pa nung pagkuha ko nung UPCAT form ko at ilalagay ko na yung course ko.

Dati, ayoko mag-UP. Pero naconvince nila ako at naconvince ko ang sarili ko na dun ko talaga gustong mag-aral. Napicture ko na noon kung anong kukunin kong course. Syempre pinili ko kung san ako may passion at ano ang gusto ng puso ko. B Fine Arts Major in Visual Communication. Sobrang desidido na ko na yun ang kukunin ko. May story line nga yan e. "I saw." - nakita ko yung taong nagpipinta dun sa mall. Sobrang na-astigan ako dahil ang galing nya. At yun na ang simula ng hilig ko sa arts. Lahat gusto kong matutunan. Drawing at painting kaya naman nagpabili ako ng sketch pad, pencil, poster paints, brushes at kung anu-ano pang pang painting. Nawala yung hilig ko dun nung nagtagal, instead, nabaling sa computer. Websites. Until I learned about graphic designs and other stuff about making art sa web. Sobrang, ay shet, eto ang gusto ko. Eto ang gusto kong gawin at maging paglaki ko. So "I knew" na eto talaga ang gusto ko. "I dreamt." Oo, dream ko yun sa buhay. "I assured." Sobrang 100% sure ako na yun talaga ang bagay na hindi ako magdadalawang isip na gawin at kunin pag college. Sobra kasing hilig ko sa designs. "I believed." Oo, I believed na kakayanin ko ang talent test. I believed in that dream. I believed that someday, ma-aachieve ko yung dream na yun. "But I backed out, at the last minute." I did. It was so sad and so heart-breaking for me. Akala ko okay na kila mommy, daddy at bros. Pero they wanted me to take up BA Film and Audio-Visual Communications. Okay lang sakin. Since editing naman yun at involves art stuff. 1st choice ko yun. So, binalak ko na yung 2nd choice ko e fine arts na lang. Pero nung tinanong ko sila, Hotel, Restaurant and Institution Management daw. Yung daw ang ilagay ko. Kasi whether I like it or not, dun pa rin ako mapupunta. Sa business nila daddy. Pero di ko talaga napicture ang sarili ko sa business na yun. Dream ko na someday magiging animator ako or graphic designer. Have my own little company for advertising or designs or even webdesigns. I once read nga na few people follow what their heart says 'cause they're afraid that by following that and taking that risk, they might get hurt and suffer terribly. But then, the heart doesn't like to suffer. So they choose the easier ways. I thought after reading that, "Are they even happy?" I thought I won't ever be like those people. I thought I would be brave enough to follow my heart and fight for my dreams, and fight for my own happiness. I thought so. But I guess, I would end up just like them. I heard my heart but I did not follow it. I always listened to it, but did not follow what it said. It was so painful. I cried so much. :(

Ngayon, yung ACET Form naman ang kinuha ko. Alam ko na agad ang kukunin ko. Fine Arts Major in Information Design and Creative Writing. Pero, nung nalaman ni daddy na kukuha ako ng ACET, sabi nya, mag-UP na lang ako. Since mura ang tuition compare mo naman sa ateneo dba? Sobrang mura ng sa UP. Iwork out ko daw talaga na makapasok sa UP. Syempre ako, pressured nanaman. Tapos magttake din ako ng USTET. Fine Arts Major in Advertising naman kukunin ko dun. Makapasa lang ako sa test at sa talent test, kahit di ako papasok dun, masaya na ko dahil alam kong qualified ako para maging BFA student. Kahit di man yun ang papasukan ko dahil malayo nga kasi, kahit ang kinuha ko naman na course dun ay gustong-gusto ko, wala ako magagawa. Actually, meron e. May choice ako. Pero siguro takot lang din ako to fight for what I love. I hate that. :( Ang point kasi, mura ang UP. At iba pa rin daw pag sinabing UP Graduate ka. E parang sobrang bigat naman para kila mommy na hanggang college e, mahal ang tuition ko. Sa OLGM na nga lang e, sobra ng sa kamahalan. Ateneo pa kaya. Sa UST ok lang naman e, kaya lang kung iccompare mo sa UP. Dba? E malayo pa yun sa min. Ang UP Dil, lapit lang nun. Ganto na lang, pag nakagraduate ako ng UP ng Film kung sakali mang makapasa ako dun, pero SANA talaga, oo. Mag-aaral ako ulit. Either Advertising, Information Design or Multimedia Arts. Kasi yun talaga yung gusto ko e. Para masaya naman. :) Hehehe.

No more. =D

Time heals broken hearts, and I'm glad that mine did. =D I'm glad that this time came when I can already say 'no more'. No more self-torture! Hehe. I'm glad i got over that stupid. I'm glad that I no longer say that I dared myself to move because I already moved myself. I'm glad I made the right decision. I'm glad that I let go of that stupid. =D I'm glad na lumabas na yung totoo.

Nalaman naming(kasi hindi lang ako) marami pala talagang gago dito sa mundo. And that don't be deceived too much by looks. Akala mo tatahi-tahimik, pero.. sheett, napaka-unbelievable na may gagawin syang ganung bagay. Dba napakamali kung may commitment na ang isang tao tapos may iba pa syang kung anu-anong kalokohan yung may ibang girl na kahit sabihin mo pang cool off sila. Ay, girls pala. Take note: plural yon. Girls na victim lang din sa situation. Masakit sa part ng pareho yun, kasi pano kung na-fall din yung mga girls na linoloko nya? Tapos patuloy pa ring umaasa yung girl na kung kanino sya committed? Months na sya niloloko tapos wala pang alam yung girl. Napakalaking kagaguhan yung ginawa nung lalaki. Di man lang nya clinear yung mga bagay-bagay between sa kanila nung girlfriend nya. Tapos ayaw nya makipagbreak kasi alam nyang sobrang mahal sya nung girlfriend nya? Dba mas masakit kung pinaasa mo pa sya na magiging kayo pa at iniisip nyang magiging maayos pa ang lahat? Ano yon, para pag nawala yung isa may reserve pa syang isa? Di mo naman masisisi kung ayaw nyang mag-isa. Pero mali pa rin e. Dba? May kilala lang naman ako na ganyan yung nangyari. Di nyo kilala syempre. Hehehe. Pero buti naman, nalaman na nung girl. At di nagalit yung girl sa kin kasi di ko nga naman kasalanan. Yung lalake yung nangungulit. Kasi kung alam ko naman na sila pa nung time na yun, ako talaga iiwas e. Eh sabi nung mga friends ko, di na naman daw. Wala rin naman sinasabi tong si gago. Hay nako. Napakalaking kalokohan. Kasi kung kilala nyo lang yun at nakita nyo sya, di nyo aakalaing gagawin nya talaga yung ganung bagay. Sobra. Pero sa kabila non, sobra rin pala sya sa kagaguhan. Tsk tsk.

Eto pa yung kinaiinisan ko, tama bang baligtarin ang storya sa ibang tao? Na ako RAW ang nangungulit?! NAPAKALAKING KALOKOHAN! NAPAKA-KAPAL NG MUKHA!!! SOBRA! Ang ganda ng pakikisama ko sa kanya tapos gaganunin nya ko. Wala akong ginagawa sa kanya tapos biglang malalaman kong ganun. Ano bang problema ng mga ganung tao?! Nakakainis! Sobra!

Pero enough of that, okay na ko. I hope maging okay na ang lahat. Dun sa girl pati yung iba pa. Kasi nakita kong umiyak yung babae e. Sobrang, shet. Mapapansin mo talagang sobrang nasaktan sya dun. Grabe. Bayagan, sampalin at tadyakan na lang natin yung lalake oh? Haha. :p Gawd, sana marealize nya yung mga pinagagawa nya at pagkakamali nya.

Uy, pupunta ako sa Davao bukas! March 25. Di ko lam hanggang kelan ako dun e, siguro 1 week or 2 weeks. :D Yey! Gusto ko nang umalis. Tagal ko nang di nakakapunta dun e. Chaka para ibang environment naman. =)

Another school year ends... =( Mamimiss ko ang 3rd year sobra. =( Sobrang daming nangyari.. the good and the bad. Sobrang mas close kami ng mga friends ko. Superfriends. :D Haayy.. sobrang mamimiss ko to. Last summer of highschool, mehn. Top 10 nga pala ko. Buti na lang bumalik ako ulit sa top 10 kasi nung 3rd qtr. naging top 11 ako e. At least lahat kami pumasok sa honors. Lahat kami, may bunga yung pagpupuyat namin nung finals. Mga cramming moments. :D Pero sobrang mamimiss ko to. =(

Handwriting Analysis ko. :)






What does your handwriting say about YOU?

The results of your analysis say:

You plan ahead, and are interested in beauty, design, outward appearance, and symmetry.
You are a shy, idealistic person who does not find it easy to have relationships, especially intimate ones.
You are affectionate, passionate, expressive, and future-oriented.
You are a talkative person, maybe even a busybody!
You enjoy life in your own way and do not depend on the opinions of others.

So Sick. =c

Pakkkk! Bwiset. @#$%! Bakit ang sakit-sakit ng nararamdaman ko ngayon? Puttttteekk. It's not supposed to be this way. It's not supposed to feel this way. Shhhhhhheettt. Naiinis na ako. Sana bakasyon na talaga. I so so hope that it's already vacation time. =c Matapos lang ang week na 'to. Ayos na rin. At least, less worries. Less things to think about. At least worth it yung worries for this week kasi for school yan e. Grades. Pero yung isang bagay na lagi kong iniisip? It's not even worth it. And I can't figure out why I can't get out of my fckkeenn system. Actually, it's not an it. You know what I mean. =) Bakit pa kasi e... bakit paaaa. I hate this. I hope I really really soooo hope that I can get this thought out of my system even just for this week. For the moment. Or even, maka-move na. I'll dare myself to move. I should dare myself to move.

Maganda yung may mga ginagawa ka para di mo yun maiisip. Pero when you're done doing some thing, the pain is back. The feeling is back. Parang after you've been in your own world doing your own thing, you come back to reality. Masakit nanaman. Tangna. I so so hate this.

Sorry po sa mga words. Sobrang... alam nyo yun. =c Sakit-sakit. Like you want to escape. Sheyttt. Pero life has to go on. In time rin... sana. Ugggggggghhhhh! Bwisseet.

so sick of love songs, so tired of tears. so tired of wishing you were still here..

Haay. Tapos na ang foundation day namin ngayon lang. Habang kinancel yung classes last Friday, kami nasa school dahil fair nga namin. Then, cancelled nung Saturday and Sunday so na-move ng Monday and Tuesday. Pero, kinancel ang pasok nung Monday dahil nga yung nangyari sa military ewan. Yun basta alam nyo naman siguro yun. :) Hehe. So na-move ulit ng Tuesday, Wednesday. Tapos every after ng foundation day, kinabukasan walang pasok dapat. PEROOOOO..... May pasok bukas! Wahh! Di pwede yun! Tsk tsk. Hayy, ayoko ngang pumasok e. Sabi nga nila, for sure daw konti lang papasok bukas. E kaya lang, unit test sa English. Solution? Pwede namang mag-special exam. =D May periodical sa Speech namin! Solution? Pwedeng mag-half day since after lunch naman yun. O dba?! Pero ewan ko, di ko pa alam. Pinag-iisipan ko pa. =)

Dance contest kanina. Juniors represent! Nung Saturday, Sunday, Monday, Tuesday... na walang pasok yung iba e nasa Convergys kami nagppractice lang ng sayaw sa Groove since may friend sila dun. 5 kami sa group -- H Crew! Walang maisip na name e. Kaya "H Crew" na lang. =p Since ang Juniors ang start na letter ng sections ay "H". Si Nikita, Nancy, AJ, AK at ako. Si AK lang yung naiibang section. Pero hayup, galing yun. Streetdance contest kasi. Harlem. Ganun. Sinayaw namin "Drop" by Timbaland. Yung sa You Got Served yun e. Ayonnn.. okay naman. Astig daw. Di kami makapaniwala na 1st place kami. Wahaha. At least, our practices all paid off. Cash prize: 2,500 Php. 5 kami so 500 each. O dba? Pwede na! Hehe. Proud kami na Juniors. Suot namin, yung suot ng boosters ng cheering competition. Nanghiram lang kami. Color blue shirt na may "J". Tas sigawan sila lage. Bwisit, natatawa ako tuwing tumitingin ako kila Ryan, Myca, Francel, Jhem... basta sila sila mga friends. Mga timang, pinagtatawanan ako. Haha. Lagi naman akong pinagttripan ng mga yon.

Mamimiss ko yung times na lagi kaming nasa Convergys. Tas every after ng practice, kumakain kami sa Tapa King o di kaya tambay muna sa Starbucks. :) Malapit na ang end ng school year. Ayoko pang umalis ng 3rd year. =( wah. Pero ganun talaga.. we need to move on. Time flies. And we can't make it stop.

Etong post na to last December 22, 2005 pa. I never got to continue it. May nakabasa e, mga kuya ko pa. Tas knwento kay mom at dad. Ever since, inaasar na ko ng mga mokong na yun. Hay. Pero okay lang, mas naging okay yung closeness. Sa totoo lang parang ayoko na masyadong i-recall to pero somehow gusto kong ikwento kasi sa inyo. Hehe. :) Kaya lang, alam ko nagbabasa yung iba kong classmates dito e. :D Kaya di safe. So... click click! silentsecrets ko.. =D Password protected yung site so just ask me para malaman nyo yung password.

Di ko pa sya tapos so I'll just continue it later. I'll watch Princess Lulu, Kim Sam Soon and PBB Celeb Edition pa. Wahaha. =)

Foundation day na namin tomorrow! 3 days! Friday, Saturday and Sunday. Then, wala kaming class sa Monday and Tuesday. Ayos! Pero after naman nun, cramming and pressure na. Shox. Sige. :)

one last cry, before i leave it all behind.

Uy mga tao! =) Ako'y nagbalik. Hehe. Di naman po kasi ako talagang nawala. Tinatamad lang talaga akong mag-blog. Ayooon. Wala lang, pinapaalam ko lang. Nyay. Sa sunod na ko magkkwento. Nagmamadali ako ngayon e. =) Yayy. Malapit nanaman magtapos ang school year. Hectic nanaman. Pero eto nanaman yung time na di nako tinatamad mag-blog. Haha, bat kaya ganun. Pero for the sake na rin na may ginagawa ako kapag wala akong ginagawa. Kasi ... basta. Hmm. Maraming nangyari since last akong nag-blog. May draft post nga ako dito nung December 22, 2005 e. Kaya lang di ko natapos. Ewan ko kung ippublish ko pa yun. Pahamak yung post na yun e. Nabasa kasi ng mga kapatid ko. Siguro ippost ko na rin. Sana lang walang nakakabasang classmate ko or schoolmate. Except lang kay angeli at pau. Alam ko namang nagvvisit sila dito minsan. Ayooon. Haay basta. =) Kwento ko na lang next time, pag di ako nagmamadali.

Sana visit nyo pa rin tong blog ko. Aayusin ko rin to. :)

I think I am better off alone. Better off without ... better off separated.