Yes, what?

I wanna be great at what I'm doing but I'm not making the most out of what's given to me. Talents and time.

I can be great at what I do.

But I just don't believe in myself enough that I can be.

I have to change... in a lot of ways... to be a better person. Career-wise, academic-wise, and my mindset.

Now I'm getting frustrated.

I'm not any better than what I visioned to be.

Cram. Panic. Cram.

I lack motivation.

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And youll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

Lord knows
Dreams are hard to follow
But dont let anyone
Tear them away, hey yeah
Hold on
There will be tomorrow
In time
Youll find the way

Midtermsss.

I'm up early! :) Need to do school works. Gah midterms. We always have a lot to do at this time. I have one midterms today, Profes1(Professional Ethics). And we have no materials for review except for that one who uploaded their report on our Yahoo!Groups. Great. I don't have much notes either. :|

Yesterday we also had a midterm and we(me and my friends) didn't know it was midterms. So s'all stock knowledge. Haha :)) Great yea? :)) I got a 17/30 though. Not bad for not studying yes? Haha. Damn I really hate Wednesdays. Sux.

AND OUR PROF IN OUR FIRST SUBJECT WAS ABSENT!!! Gah CJ and Camae!!! And Cerisse!!! They were all on it! Hahaha. Just because I was late and did not catch them in the classroom :( What can I do, it was super traffic! Gah. So I went to the cafeteria and there they were! And they said they had midterms and such. THAT I DON'T HAVE GRADE FOR OUR GROUP REPORT AND MIDTERMS! Who would not worry about that??? Ack hahaha. I hate them =)) =)) This group activity we had last week was to make a 15-minute TVC on a topic about "Smoking Kills". But we shouldn't have any smoke paraphernalia, cigarette butts and packs, etc. that literally tells it's about smoking.

Well I kinda knew they were kidding but I wasn't so sure. :)) So when I got to talk to Kevin on Facebook and asked him what happened, AND THERE, he said our prof's absent! Agh =)) =)) That's why I hate being late and still I'm always late. :|

Anyways off to do my print ads due on Friday. Why is it always due on Friday when I have no classes? Then I have to go to school. :/

Self fail.

I knew that there were no guarantees. No way of knowing what came next for me, or him, or anybody. Some things don’t last forever, but some things do. Like a good song, or a good book, or a good memory you can take out and unfold in your darkest times, pressing down the corners and peering in close, hoping you still recognize the person you see there.
-Sarah Dessen

Screwing up for the past 2 weeks of school. Damn it. I didn't start my year right. Everything's just... a failure.

I'm disappointed with myself.

I'm at this point where I'm bored, lazy and would just want to sleep and stay at home all day. With no priorities, deadlines, and other stuff needed to be done.

I want to go on and make myself better but I don't know, I just screw it up. My sleeping habit is so messed up, my school performance is fcuked up. As in big time. Sure I mean, it's fine. But it's just that I'm too lazy doing the things I need to do that I end up doing things I want to do.

I don't like disappointing myself. It makes me feel frustrated. Like I know I can do something about it, but whenever I try to, I fail with it. And it makes me a lot more frustrated.

Things are not better. Well, lifestyle-wise and school-wise.

I am happy. But I want to be happy in a sense that it makes me a better person. But it doesn't. So I may just THINK I am happy, but I'm really not? I don't know. I'm too 'relaxed' these days.

I'm so messed up. This isn't just me. :(

I'm just really really really disappointed with myself. And I have no one to talk about it. :( Makes me all the more disappointed. And sad :(

Forget past mistakes. Forget failures. Forget about everything except what you’re going to do now - and do it.
— William Durant

Never let success go to your head and never let failure go to your heart.

“Success is going from failure to failure with no loss of enthusiasm.”

—	Winston Churchill

Ninety-nine percent of all failures come from people who have a habit of making excuses.

—	George Washington Carver

“We’ve all heard the proverbs, heard the philosophers, heard our grandparents warning us about wasted time, heard damn poets urging us to seize the day. Still sometimes, we have to see for ourselves. We have to make our own mistakes. We have to learn our own lessons. We have to sweep today’s possibility under tomorrow’s rug until we can’t anymore. Until we finally understand for ourselves what Benjamin Franklin really meant. That knowing is better than wondering, that waking is better than sleeping, and even the biggest failure, even the worst, beat the hell out of never trying.”

—	Grey’s Anatomy

What's happened to me?

I often wake up late. I stay up late. I didn't do my research paper. I didn't go to class. I am addicted to Tumblr. I am tired. My back hurts. I think my head is going to explode. Well not really.

....

Okay. Yes, new term and I often wake up late. So I run late to school, OR I just don't go to class. How am I going to make it if I wake up at 8am and my class is at 9, and my travel time is 1 and a half hour? I rarely make it. Lol.

I didn't do my research paper for DESNCON. Yes, screwed. But I woke up late. Stayed up late 'cos I watched Obama's inauguration on TV. Lol. So.. yeah.

I feel like I have a lot to do tomorrow. We'll try to do a FOTOGRA shoot, then Imma print our PROFES1 group requirements, ATM.. well, it's not so much maybe. But that involves a lot of walking and waiting. I'm working out my muscles right there tomorrow. HAHAHA. Or later I mean.

I still have to do our PARTDES report powerpoint. Sondesn. Uhm, Deskpub. Desncon. Desncon. Oh yeah. Pretty much that. Lalalala, I thought my new year's resolution is to not procastinate ever again this year? Not to cram? Well..

New year resolution FAIL.

My favorite day is Tuesday. I'm loving FOTOGRA. Thursdays are fine. PROFES1 is cool. I love Mondays and Fridays. Hooray no classes. And my least favorite is Wednesday. Thank you very much.

Where is my playtime?

So much to do, so little time. But well, I complain too much. I shouldn't have time doing this right? But I do. Because I want to. And it's 2:20am. And I'm hungry. Back hurts. I need massage.

Even if my least favorite day is Wednesday, yesterday was pretty much nice. Very nice. Well, happy. Because because because.... :D OHMYGOSH. I feel like jumping up and down. Hahahaha. Only Jesy and Cerisse know about this. And my brother. Haha. I decided not to tell too many people yet 'cos it may not push through if I did. Maudlot pa. HAHA. But at least, it's possible. YES IT IS POSSIBLE. :D Weeyoweeyowee! :D My brother doesn't know how I feel about it btw. I just told him because he knows that person I'm talking about. Or.. well, they're pretty much "friends" now. HAHA. And I love it when they talk. Buh uhm, I'm crossing my fingers. :x

And a guy and a girl can be just friends but at one point or another, they will fall for each other. Maybe temporarily, maybe at the wrong time, maybe too late, or maybe forever.
-Dave Matthews

Pic sharing guys! :D From our FOTOGRA class. Lol.





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(via perplexigirl)

You don't know how much you make me happy. Yes, still. 2008 = YOU.
And you know what I'd really really concentrate on when that happens? Simple. Try to not let you hear my pounding heartbeat like it's gonna rip from my chest. I'd probably get scared getting near you because of that. Lol.

Who cares if you read this or not. You might. But, you wouldn't know you're the one I'm talking about anyway. :D ;)

A New Year, A New Post.

So after one month, I decided to go into my Blogger again and change the template. I found this one on Blogskins. I wanted to make this kind of layout for a long time now but don't have the time to.. and I didn't know how to as well. HAHA. Loser. My CSS shits are kind of out-dated now. The layout looks clean, doesn't it? I think it is. That's why I love it! I like clean and simple looks now. Gone are the days that I used to like so much splattered brushed and all that.

So last Christmas, we had a family Christmas Party. It's held annually now, haha. It began when it was just me and my mom at home 'cos my brothers and cousins had a gig in Davao back in 2006. And my dad went with them so we were left alone. My brother's girlfriend went at home from time to time to check us and hang out with us or drive us somewhere. Then we just had the idea of having a Christmas party along with family friends, cousins' family and the others left behind here so it wouldn't be so lonely. And it all started there. It's something I look forward to every year.

On 2008, we held it at our new home in Fairview. I just realized then that we celebrate it on a different house every year. Haha. Those were the times when we moved houses. Too bad it rained so we started out late. :( But still it was fun cos we had an intermission number for every family. It was my idea to put it in so it would be so much fun. My dad and brothers played 3 Beatles songs. My dad sang and played the bass. Then, my 2 cousins who used to be the vocalists in their band sang as well. So it was like a mini-reunion. Ha ha. And I had it all captured on video! We had games, of course. The most fun was the Hep-hep hooray game. It was so funny watching them! My 2nd brother, as our representative, won! Hahaha. And there are a LOT of kids now. Ngayong year kasi, may 2 families na nadagdag. Haha. My cousin's and my uncle's family. Ang kukulit! But they're so cute and adorable. XD Madadagdagan pa since my cousin's wife just gave birth last November and my sister-in-law will give birth this April. I gotta admit, I'm not so used to having kids around. But I guess I have to get used to it now. This just means I'm getting older. =]]

I wanna transfer the videos on my computer ASAP so I can edit and upload it on YouTube or Vimeo or somewhere. But I'm having problems with the cables and stuff. =[

New Year was kinda fun as well. My mom invited the kids from Children's Joy Foundation and they sang Christmas carols. Hehe. But man, it was so SO SO LOUD OUTSIDE OUR HOUSE. AND THERE WERE A LOT OF PEOPLE. LMAO. I'm being sarcastic. =]] Srsly, there were no people at all. Cars were just passing by us and some people walking but I haven't seen a single neighbor outside their house. In our old village, New Year's the only time we get to interact and see people outside their home. But here? LOL. The road's so clean. It was still fun though.. because of the food. And it rained as well. Boo. =]]

My brother and I just played Ragnarok. BAHAHA. Who would've thought I'd come back and play again? Just not on iRO though. We're now playing on a private server. My friend invited me to play, and I just thought why not? It's something I can do to pass my time. Or relax when I'm stressed. Or it just simply reads: PROCASTINATION. Hahaha. But noooo, I don't want that this year. I DON'T WANT TO CRAM EVER AGAIN. I mean, just not this year. This year will be a tough one. I'm in my last term as a sophomore. And I say hello to majors on junior year. Whenever I think about what's going to happen this year, it overwhelms me like a lot. But I want to believe I can do it. I can survive. Yes, I know I can. I just need confidence. =[ I lack that. STILL. And I hate it. And I'm going to turn 18 five months from now. And my mom told me to arrange things as early as now. =o =o

As for school stuff, our term started on Wednesday. Umm, I didn't go to my second class. WHOOPS. Sreh. Hahaha. WE DIDN'T. Cerisse, Camae, CJ and I. We went to MOA to eat at Kamay Kainan! :D FREE! Haha. Then we window shopped, as usual. Then we went to Krispy Kreme then CJ said that we shouldn't go to school. HAHAHA. Then suddenly Cerisse and Camae agreed cos they were lazy. BOO. And I wanted to go to class!!! I told them I'll be a GOOD INFLUENCE to them. ROFL. But it was 3 vs. 1. And I lost. HAHA. So we stayed at Krispy Kreme then went around the mall. I bought a book at National Bookstore called Exit Here. I wanted to buy 2 but my money wasn't enough. The title of the other book I wanted to buy was, Wait for me, so I TALKED TO THE BOOK lmao and said, "Okay, wait for me!". Haha. Oh I was just willing to spend 500 bucks that day. I wanna save. So I'll come back for the other books later. And I wanna buy that cube thingy we were trying to solve to be a cube? I can't explain it. HAHA. Anyway it looks like this:

Googled it! Haha. We were all sitting on the floor ON THE CHILDREN'S SECTION trying to solve that. =]] It was so frustrating. You think you have nearly solved it but NOOOO, there's this empty spot in the middle or somewhere and you just don't know where to put the other cubes. What a problem eh? Haha. So we gave up and went back to school.

Sorry for lying, folks. =[ I've been a bad girl. =]] I don't wanna do that next week and the weeks after that. BLAME CJ! Haha. I don't wanna spend too much money. We'll just go to the computer lab and just go on the internet. =]]

Yesterday, I didn't go to school cos my mom said so. BOO. =[ My brothers weren't home yet that time cos the car broke down or something in Tagaytay. I don't know what happened really though. So, most likely my dad got lazy driving me to school. AND my mom didn't want me to commute. So I won't go to school. BAH. I felt bad about it and just slept the whole day. And now I'm screwed cos they were asked to form a group for a business company and it's allowed to have only 4 members and Cerisse, CJ, Kevin and Angela are groupmates since I wasn't there. And they're already four. So no more room for me. =[ Ohhaii. I can do it. Time to meet new people, yeah? I suck at that sometimes. I get scared. LOL. =[

I think I'm gonna play Ragnarok now or read a book. Or go to tumblr. Or something. I've no class today since I'm off every Monday and Friday. Goodie! :D I wanna watch The Curious Case of Benjamin Button. And download the new ep of Gossip Girl. DAMNNNN. I haven't watched they Ep14 yetttt! =[[[ This one's pretty long now. Thanks for reading though! :) Happy New Year! =]

I'm gonna leave you guys with this YouTube video I found:

I didn't know someone translated it to english. Haha. Pretty cool. =] I'll always love this song.

Finals and Christmas Break

“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn’t it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life…You give them a piece of you. They didn’t ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn’t your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like ‘maybe we should be just friends’ turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It’s a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.”

-Neil Gaiman


The MMA life.
Source: Weheartit

Finals is just around the corner, so as Christmas break. I can't wait for this term to be over. I still have pending things to do like my COLREND final plate, COMGRAP printfolio and our group project and FREHAND plates. I just want to get it all over with. But it seems like I'm taking it easy. UH-OH. But I can do this. Konti na langggg. Mas nakakapagod sa susunod pang mga terms. I'm just lazy, that's all.

And I just love December. Malamig noh? Sana ganun na lang lagi sa Pinas. Kahit sa araw. :)) Asa lang. :]]

So I just wanted to blog here. Tagal na kasi e. I often post on my Tumblr though. :D I'm here in our school's COMLAB, waiting for my next class. I didn't go to my first class cos I was late. And I haven't finished my painting yet. Just 15 minutes to go for my next class. Or I mean, for my 1st class to end. :p

Laters! =]

Listening to: Flightless Bird, American Mouth by Iron and Wine ♥

Death is easy. Life is harder.

-Bella, Twilight Movie

Term break!

Okay. I dreamt today. It's rare that I actually remember what my dreams are that I think I never dream at all. Today, I had a lot of dreams.

First, my mom and I went out. Probably in a mall, I don't know what mall though. We went inside some kind of store or some place to hang out and I was just sitting there and there were like less than 10 people in there, including us. And they were speaking to each other. Then when the store's about to close, most of them went out already but my mom and I were still there with the store owner. And my mom was talking about me looking younger than 17. And it's weird cos I have full bangs in that dream, LMAO. Then the owner was kind of agreeing to what my mom said. Then my mom told her, "So hindi sila pwede nung lalake kanina? Yung katabi ko na 18-year-old?" I was like, WTF??!?! ROFLMAO!!!! That's not likely to happen in real life. HAHAHA. I actually noticed the guy my mom was talking about. And I thought, "Uy gwapo. Pero.." HAHAHHA. Then I just laughed and said, "ANO?!" Then there were more scenes but it's not that significant. Haha.

Second, I think it's the continuation of that dream. Only that, I was with Cerisse. Apparently, she was there with us too and I don't know why. Haha. We were talking and hanging out and she knows some guy there in the earlier setting of my dream. Apparently, the one beside the guy my mom was talking about. I think, as far as I could remember. Haha.

Third, this was entirely different. I dreamt of a friend. This time, we saw each other already. And they just arrived from the airport and went straight to eat. So it was a surprise that we were both there in the same restaurant. Weird cos his brother and him were with a dog, a shitzu(sp? haha) maybe. And I think they were looking for their table. I saw him roaming around before that but wasn't really sure if it was him. Then we were about to leave, or oh yea, we[the girls] were going to the restroom. Then they were walking near our table and BAM! We noticed each other and we both said together, "UY!" =)) Then the conversation went like this:

Me: Kelan ka pa nandito?
Siya: Kakarating lang namin.
Me: O? Hanggang kelan kayo?
Siya: Sa 30.
Me: September?
Siya: *nods*
Me: Ah.
*silence*

=)) And he was just looking at me and smiling and looking surprised. While I didn't know what to say or do and I got conscious and HAHAHHA, said "Sige una na ko. Alis na kami eh." Then there. LMAO =)) Then I think we got on MSN then asked numbers and said we should hang out and such. GAH. Just when... oh well.

Anyway, it's term break for me now! I'm still going to school on Monday to claim my course cards. I'd probably be there the whole day. My BASICOM prof emailed me and told me, along with Tring and Kevin, that she got our grades adjusted. My final grade was 1.5, I don't know what it is now. *crosses fingers* My HARTDS1(History of Art and Design) and DESPRIN(Principles of Design) grade was both 3.5. *dancing banana* I'm praying for my PHILIEN grade now. :| :| I hope I passss! At least all I'm worrying about now are my grades. No more stress from school work deadlines. But, I still have a lot to do in my term break.

I will update soon. Laterdaysss :D

Term's about to end in 5 days!

She followed my gaze and at the sight of it her silent tears began to flow again. She shook madly and I could tell she was trying to be strong in front of me.
Now more than ever I wanted to embrace her, but I couldn't. If I did, I was afraid I would never let her go.
-Signs of Woe, Chapter 11

My hell month is about to end this week. YEY! For the past few weeks I've mostly been stressing myself over deadlines and whatnots for school. Fortunately, I survived. Even if I lacked sleep, even if I almost gave up. I was awake for 36 hours last Thursday. BOOM. I didn't even feel sleepy the whole day, not until we waited for our HARTDS1(History of Art and Design) professor for course cards distribution.

Speaking of, I was really really scared for that subject 'cause our prof usually scares us about how half of his classes fail and all that. Well, I had one assignment I wasn't able to pass. And it's the one and only assignment he gave for the whole term. But.. I got a 3.5! *dancing banana* I didn't expect that. At all. And I'm just so grateful and thankful to God for everything! I always prayed to Him to give me strength to go on and to guide me and let me see the light. Yeah, I was that close to giving up. I could just slack off anytime I want to, that would make my life easier. But no, slacking means failing. I wouldn't want that.

So I'm done with most of my school works. There are only 2 left to do which is DESPRIN(Principles of Design) and BASICOM(Basic Computer). Actually, I'm supposed to be doing my DESPRIN finals right now. But I'm kind of taking my time. After posting this, I probably will go start doing my 'self-portrait'. I hope I won't mess it up :o

You might probably wonder what that Signs of Woe is, yeah? Well maybe not but just thought of sharing what it is. It's a novel, posted online, on MySpace. It's Twilight-inspired, so it's kind of close to the vampire thingy. ;) I'm still waiting for the chapter 12 to come up so I'm reading other online novels. I love to read and read a lot during my free time. On term break, I probably will watch a lot of DVDs and catch up with television and stuff. Term break's just one week although it won't be enough rest for me, at least there's time to rest than none at all, yes?

I'd better cut this off now, I can't think of anything to say already. I made a Tumblr account btw. And that's what made me post here in my real blog. Ginanahan, haha. ;p

Napanaginipan kong bumalik ka na, parang totoo. Ginigising ako ng tatay ko para kumain. Pero parang ayoko nang magising.
Mali ito.

I wanna be superhuman.

So I have downloaded the latest version of Firefox and along with it, downloaded lots of add-ons and themes compatible with the new version. This is why I actually love Firefox, for its add-ons. It makes life so much easier for me. Ha ha. I can have everything I have online like IMs, emails, social networking sites, etc., in just this browser. I have Foxclocks too so I know what time it is where ever in the world. Cool yeah? :D It's just boo though cos the Multiply and MySpace toolbar won't work for the latest version. I hope they update soon. I have the Facebook Toolbar though, at least. Then I won't be lazy opening my Facebook account now. I also downloaded the Gmail notifier, Yoono, CTRL-Tab, Save Session, and others I can't remember anymore. :]] I'm loving my themes. Right now, my browser is color light green. Ha ha. :]]

Anyways. School has been taking much of my time lately, as it always does actually. I actually don't like this term very much cos this term had me really scared like crazy. Every single freakin' day I think I'm going to have a heart attack just thinking or imagining of what will happen during the day. It's actually mostly because of ORALCOM. It really catches me off guard. I hate not being able to prepare myself beforehand with things that's out of my comfort zone. It's okay going out of that comfort zone if and only if I am prepared. If not, well, my heart has probably--if it can-- ripped out of my chest already. Yeah.

Aside from all those scary things(for me at least), life's been going well. Since my family, friends and I went to MOA(that place on the bayside, forgot the name) to celebrate my cousin's birthday. I don't know, it just had me come back to my rightful place. It made me happier and brighter, at least. And that's good yeah? :D

So these days has been the most scariest rides of my life. For one, well I really don't know. Mmm.. next is because finals is nearing and that means dozens of projects all piled up for deadlines. I think I have mentioned that on my previous post. It just keeps getting worse everyday the deadline comes close. Ohwell. I just want this term to end. Until that day comes, I'm just going to have to hold my breath and continue living this shit. I'm not the one who easily gives up but I actually thought of already giving up things like school responsibilities, like I don't wanna do them anymore. Good thing I still have this positive side in me which actually saved me from giving in to being physically and emotionally weak. I could have had an emotional breakdown! But some things just keep me going and strong. I have to.

As you can see, this blog has been my medium for putting my repressed emotions. So my blog posts will kind of contain these rants until the term ends. You'll have to bear with me on that. ;)

I've finished reading Breaking Dawn as well, last Sunday. It's been hard reading it with me left hanging on what will happen next 'cause I have to do my more prioritized things to-do. But yeah, I loved it. Not as much as I loved Twilight and the other books in the series though. But it's all good. I am happy and satisfied with how it ended. Some people didn't like it and yeah probably because of the too perfect ending. I think it would have been much better if there was a fight. I was really hoping there would be a fight but I was left disappointed. But oh wells, it's okay, I'm a sucker for happy endings anyway. ;) I'm re-reading Twilight again on my free time. My brother's reading it as well but he's so slow. Ha ha. :]]

Went to SM Fairview today to buy a dress for my HS classmate's debut on Saturday. I thought I'm going to have a facial treatment but they won't allow it since I guess they don't think the scars from all that pricking will wear off on Saturday so I just had a cleaning instead. I loveeedd it! Lmao, I love every thing that causes me to relax these days. It feels good having that kind of pampering amidst all the stress. It's been hard a gold or silver dress cos that's what it says on the invitation! Come in gold or silver. Wth. Ha ha :]]

I think this one's pretty long now. ARGH. I'm not planning to write a post at all today! :]] Have to go. Kbye :)

You know what sucks?

K so I haven't really posted a real update for the past uh, weeks. I wasn't planning to blog tonight but I just have to rant this thing I have been thinking of since last week. It just got into me though it often happens to us for the longest time.

So before that, I'm going to excuse myself for not being able to blog. Although this won't really be a valid one since my schoolmates have been able to update theirs no matter how busy it is in school these days. It's not THAT busy though, I just like to be 'busy'. :)) But forealz, it's August now and all the workload has been dumped into us by our professors, and they're not even our design/major profs! Okay, maybe I'm just lazy. And whenever I thought of updating, I'm not able to do it since I'm being distracted by either Plurk or the Twilight updates. Soyeah.

I'm gonna talk about my life these days. Seriously I've never felt this scared. Like everyday, you're scared of something, like something is going to happen terrible. Almost every single freakin' day, I'm scared that I almost would not want to live the day but I have to. There's this voice inside me that says I have to get through the day, that I should. It's not suicidal okay? :)) It's just like I want to escape the everyday stresses and fears I'm experiencing. One reason for that is ORALCOM. I hate public speaking. I obviously am not confident with myself. I know it's those kind of things I have to improve but fear just gets in the way. Main reason why I have these quotes written on my Starbucks Planner, "Don't ever let fear hold you back." and "Why worry if you can pray?", so I won't get so scared and worry so much anymore. I wasn't having this problem back in high school, maybe a little bit, but not this kind of fear. Back in high school, we were trained to speak in front a lot during our Speech Laboratory classes and we were so used to it that it helped me gain my confidence. Back in senior year, I had to speak in front of the whole school body and deliver my speech during our Student Council Miting De Avance and didn't have any problem with that. I feel like my self-confidence has decreased to a depressing level. And I don't like that, it makes me feel frustrated about myself.

Second is that... well, *can't think of any other reason*, OHYEAH, P.E.! :)) Just because I don't know anyone there. Though I'm getting better with talking to people in that class and I now have people to play table tennis with. So I'm kind of okay with that now. *insert dancing banana here*

K next. It's August now.. which means, last month of the term; finals; more plates; projects; more projects; and of course, BREAKING DAWN RELEASE! So that last one makes my August bearable. *dancing banana* I told you above that our prof dumped us bunch of workloads, specifically our PHILIEN(Philippine Literature in English) professor. We have to make a scrapbook consisting of the things we treasure most and a comics interpreting Bringing the Dolls, and it's all due on Tuesday! We also need to create a magazine about ourselves(I think) for the finals. Talk about expenses. I'm broke, you know. I just spent my savings on buying a new optical mouse and a 1GB DDR2 RAM for my PC. I don't regret buying it though, why of course why would I? It made my computer perform faster! *dancing banana again* And I wouldn't have to lag so much when AVG scans my computer, just like what it's doing now, and I'm not lagging unlike before *annoyed emoticon from plurk*. Also, I wouldn't have to deal with my old mouse. You know the mouse with the ball? LMAO.

Add to the school works are my DESPRIN plates, HARTDS1 Finals exhibit(on which I have to make a product that's wearable or we can use and it should be inspired by an art era like the Egyptian or Christian art, etc. Any ideas? :D), ORALCOM speeches(oh no for impromptu speeches!), and uhm, yeah I think that's it. Ohyeah, BASICOM! BASICOM company website and our defense! Mannn. With all that, I think I have to go now to finish my plate but I haven't gotten to the main point of this post yet.

I've posted this on Plurk. I hate being compared. I hate being misunderstood. I hate being underestimated. I know it's one way of driving someone to do better. You know, I'm really trying hard to do better and I think I'm successful in doing so. This is most likely to be such a teenage angst but I don't think they appreciate it all. Well maybe they do, but I don't feel it. It's when I do things that aren't acceptable that they notice. It's not that I do much of that but it's mostly the mistakes, you know? It sucks. Especially being underestimated, like I can't do this and I don't know this when in fact I actually do. It makes me feel so less of myself. Like they make me feel I'm stupid. I know I have to wake up early and mostly my fault why I'm always late, yes okay, but I'm so sleep deprived that I'm not able to do so. I often stay up late cos I'm doing something school-related. I'm often in front of the computer cos that's what my course requires. I know they're just concerned about me. But I think they have to understand my side too. Which I cannot make them understand cos I can't say anything to them. I don't want to argue with them anymore so I just keep my mouth shut.

Sucks that way. You know, I really have the drive to prove to them that I will be someone someday. I just need them to believe in me. And I don't feel that they do. *tears*

On fire.

You were everything, everything that I wanted. We were meant to be, supposed to be but we lost it.

On Thursday, I was super drained and slept the moment I got home. Friday, I still was kind of drained and I still slept the moment I got home. Saturday, kind of refreshed but still slept the moment I got home. Lmao! :)) I just realized how much I slept for the last 3 days. And how much I crammed.

DUDE I swear I hate cramming! I will never ever ever ever cram a project like that! WTF, I hate how our minds can work during the last minute! We could have done that a week before Thursday but we didn't cos we can't think of anything to put in the Project Brief. :]]]] I hated how my mind was all like squeezed until it wasn't squeezable anymore. =))) I really hope our prof will allow us to revise that! Man. And we still have to think of a concept of how we're going to do the product commercial. Dang, my groupmates and I weren't able to meet awhile ago since one wasn't allowed to go. T_T And we weren't able to do our dubbing project yet which is due on Monday! WTF. I swear, I don't like the feeling of cramming anymore. T_T

Anyway, I woke up early around 5am to go with mom and dad to the airport. We fetched my aunt in the bus terminal and dropped her off the airport. Her flight's at 10am but we were there like 7am. So we ate first and caught up with things. We just rode the taxi going there cos my brother wasn't able to come home last night =))))) And you know what I hate? Everything is too expensive. Especially the gas, man! WTF, 60/liter? You gotta be kidding meee. That could go on like 80/liter! WTH, there'll be no cars in the streets when that time comes! Wag na tayong pumasok! Lmao. But on the brighter side, that would mean less traffic. We went through EDSA and there was no traffic at all! Super less cars! But nevertheless, transportation is a necessity. I mean, you can't walk to the place you need to go to here! Can I walk from Fairview to Taft? No way. That would take 48 years. You can ride a bike or skateboard but not everyone can. And still, it's far.

My dad was interviewing the taxi drivers we had so that was like 3 of them. And all of them were complaining about the gas. Then there would be times when they don't earn enough profit. Gas na nga lang, lugi na talaga sila. That's why there are a lot of taxi drivers forced to choose passengers depending on where they're going to. So it was kind of hard for us to find a taxi from Taft going to Fairview. I was going to suggest to just ride the LRT-MRT then go to Fairview from North Ave. or Quezon Ave. station. But we were lucky enough to find a taxi. Too bad, I thought it would be my mom and dad's first time to ride the LRT-MRT. =))

AND OH. Last Wednesday, I got to ride the LRT-MRT all by myself! WHOO! Hahaha! From Vito Cruz to Edsa Taft, Edsa Taft to North Avenue. My mom did know I rode the LRT-MRT, only that she didn't know that I was alone. She knew I was with a friend. :)) My brother was in on it though. He asked me if I can, then I said yeah. It was about time to try it. Then he'll just fetch me at TriNoMa. I was lucky enough to have found a seat in the MRT and so I was sitting all through out my ride. And there was not much people in the LRT so yeah. :] While I was at TriNoMa, I grabbed the chance to go to Powerbooks and have myself reserve a copy of Breaking Dawn which will be out on August 4. Shoot, I seriously can't wait anymore! And Stephenie Meyer said on her MySpace blog that she'll put up a 'Quote of the Day' down to the day of the release of the book! She doesn't know where it will be put up yet though. But it'll be announced. Ohyay!

Hmm, what else. Oh there, my brother just got home from Ortigas. He went to Enchanted Kingdom cos he jammed to the Streets band who often is Amber's band. Last night, he went to Amber's condo to rehearse songs with the band. And he asked me a favor to download like 15 songs so he can review it. It was like 6 months since he last really played the guitar on stage as a band. :]]]] Sure they were asked to jam to bands whenever we go out but that's just like one song that they already know. Dang, I sure miss them playing. :[ One night we were at Blue Wave and we were all there with my mom and dad, they were talking about putting the band up together again. For even just one day, Saturday or Friday, they can have a gig just for the sake of the old times. I mean, I know they miss it. And they're still so young and very talented! If they stop at once, it'll all be waste. I mean, not really but it's sayang. Everyone they know at this point, they met through their gigs. And those people are like family now. Their girlfriends, wives, best of friends, everyone they met along their way while playing. It's been a very big part in our lives. I've watched them play all my life. I witnessed how much they love playing music. I still feel sad whenever I think of everything that has happened then. But I think it's cool that we handed it all pretty well, at least. I think it made us a lot stronger too and that's a good thing. I think it was a challenge and it made me sad that they gave up at once.

And on that night in Blue Wave, was the first time I drank in front of my mom and dad. Seriously it was so freakin' awkward! :)) Dude I've drank Vodka/Vodka Ice for like I don't know, but many times now. And I've never been drunk in my whole life. Then they ordered me a Margarita. LMAO. My mom tasted it, dang. And said to me that I shouldn't drink it anymore cos I might get drunk. Cos they said it's a 'juice' drink. HAHAHA. I couldn't drink the way I could whenever my parents are not around. But it's not like I drink with my friends, I drink with my family! I often go out with my brothers, cousins, their wives and girlfriends! And I thought that even if I get drunk, it'll be fine cos I'm with my parents. Right? I have a point there right? Haha! Rather than I'm with strangers. I don't get why my mom still treats me like I'm 13 or younger than I am. I'll be turning 18 next year, man! She doesn't want to let go of me just yet. It's not that I don't like how she looks out for me, it's just that sometimes she tend to overact much. She doesn't even want me to commute, what the hell. I know she's thinking of my safety but I'm also thinking of practicality. I mean, I should experience those kind of things. Sometimes it sucks being all locked up in your world all your life. I should learn how to handle things on my own. I don't want to be overly dependent to my parents. I'm really not, but I don't want to come to the point that I am overly dependent on them.

My brother talked to my dad about these things and he understands. My dad is very open to things and he understands. He also wants us to learn and experience things. And I want to, too. Cos I sometimes feel like they make me feel like I'm not responsible enough. My brother understands me on this one, he said he knows how it feels. And it sucks.

Oh well, enough with the rants. I haven't been blogging for quite a while and I kind of miss it. I wasn't even able to do my blog rounds these days. And look at my blog layout, it's all messed up. :)) I'm lazy coding my layouts. And I've been quite addicted to Plurking! :]]]

So yeah, that would be all for now. :)

Ain't that bad, yo.

One week has passed! Dohhhh. So, I should've posted a blog last Saturday or Sunday but I got lazy. Yessss I'm a super lazy me. LOL. Huwat?! =))

So, last Tuesday was my birthday. But it felt like my birthday was the whole week. Friends kept greeting me a happy birthday everytime I go to school. =)) Lmao! That was fun. But the birthday itself wasn't much of a good day. Probably because nothing much has happened during the day. We(Neela, CJ and I) just went to MOA to kill time since we have a 3-hour break. And then DESPRIN(Principles of Design) changed the so-so mood of the day cos I was so excited for Cerisse! =)) HAHAHA. Shaks ah, nabanggit pa you here sa blog ko! LMAO! =)) Then our planned TriNoMa birthday celebration didn't push through since the people my parents invited couldn't come so we ate at Seaside instead. Good foodddd. I love good food! But the mood of the day continued. I can just say I wasn't ultimately happy. I thought my 17th was the suckiest day ever. LOL. Well not really, it's just that it's not a really good day I guess. Idk. :)) But I appreciate everything everyone had done to make it the happiest day possible though.

So ya, my Saturday celebration somehow paid for it anyway. Cossss, I SAW MY HIGH SCHOOL SUPERFRIENDS once again! Ohgosh, how I loved it. Haha, srsly! Though not everyone could come, it was nice cos I get to hang-out with them a bit, talk and catch up. Damn I missed them so! I wish I could like go out with them at least once a week! Haha but things need plans so.. sometimes it can't be possible. And I really appreciate those people who just dropped by to greet me a happy birthday. Or para lang mapaunlakan yung invitation ko sa kanila. Oh wow, that's... deep! Haha. So yeah, cos that was a Saturday and my invitation was such a short notice but they went anyway even if they have plans that night. Meant a lot, really. :] But I really hope we'd get together some time. Like, all of us! I really really wish to have a high school batch reunion before the year ends! IT'S A MUST EVERY YEAR! :)) At least for me. :] And.. only three of my college friends went cos most of them are from the south so they couldn't come. Laughtrip lang si Kevin Chua at Pem cos they really went! HAHA. Though they're north people, Fairview is still far y'know. :)) AND IT'S ALL BECAUSE OF THE FOOD. =)) Nyahaha! It was fun though.

On to a new topic. Last Thursday after my 8pm class, my parents and brother(2nd) went to fetch me. Just that time they told me that we're going to a family friend's wake. That family friend was my Kuya Raymond's(3rd) high school batchmate/bandmate and maybe best friend and an ex-bandmate(Pure Instinct). LOL. Labo na! [FLASHBACK] Back then, I was still in grade school, the families of every person included in their band went to our house just because and also to check how the band's doing and all. And so our family became friends with my brother's friend's family. Lol, is that right? =)) To the point that we even celebrated our Pre-New Year all together. That was fun! I can still remember that time, way back 2000 I think or 2001 before our family went to Cebu to spend the New Year. :)) [/END FLASHBACK] It was his dad's wake. And his dad passed away on my birthday! :o So I figured that was why my parents and my brother was so dressed up like they're going somewhere after. So yeah, meron nga! Haha. We went to Sanctuarium and I was so hungry since I didn't eat before my class! BOO-HOO. Luckily there's a mini-store inside and I ate siopao just to somehow ease my hungriness. Lol. Then we went up and I saw my brother's high school friends, my brother of course and his girl friend. One of my bro's HS friends was like, "O Cha! Ang laki niyo na ah! *points to other people with the same age as me or older*" And I realized that one person he pointed at was our family friend's brother. And it came to me.. "Oh no. Shocks. Makikita ko siya!" HAHAHA. So this is another story.

So, my brother's bestfriend has two younger brothers. The one I saw was his second younger brother. Since my brother's HS bandmates' family often come to our house then, we somehow get to know them a little. And my kuya's bestfriend(he was the vocalist of their HS band) has this brother(his third younger brother), a year older than me. Back in grade 4, I had a crush on him. LMAO! And he knew! Their AM class knew! Cos in our school, for grade school there were only two sections: AM and PM. So I was grade 4 and he was grade 5. GAH. :)) I didn't know HOW they knew! And my brother's HS friends as well as my brother knew. And they kept on pairing us then. Tuksuhan and all. Nakakahiya yun noh! Haha! I can still remember, omay! Haha. It was funny cos we never talked. Maybe once or twice when there were circumstances that were unavoidable like when my mom told me to show him where the telephone was or when he went to the house to drop by food or something, my mom usually told me to get it. LMAO. And that's not even called a real talk! :)) So I guess we were really shy =)) Or ako lang! Haha. Laughtrip! :)) And oohhhh! [FLASHBACK]I can still remember, before our school held an event where chosen students will perform and he was one of those students. My friends were there too! They were gon' dance! Then my friends were telling me that he was really good. Or at least that's what I can remember. Haha! Then on the day of the performance, he was like all over the place! LMAO. I was like, "wth?!" I was looking at him cos he was my friend's partner! Eh ayun, di ko na lang tinitingnan. Na-shy? Haha! Jokes amp na-peeling naman ako nun =)) Feel ko na-conscious eh. Haha! I told to my friend, "Bat ganon partner mo? Parang hindi alam steps." She said, "Ewan ko, nung practice naman okay siya e." [/END FLASHBACK] :)) I remember the last time I saw him was back in 2nd year HS. [FLASHBACK]They went to my brother's gig at Ratsky and he and his mom were there because at that time, Kuya X(his bro) was already part of my bro's band. We were on the same table! And I can't even look at him. My mom and his mom were just talking. Nakakatawa, swear! Then when we arrived home, my mom told me.. "Bakit di kayo nag-uusap nung kapatid ni *insert my bro's bestfriend name here*?" I said, "Ha? Ewan ko, di kami close e. Haha!" Pero I think at that time, I was thinking, "yak nakakahiya noh!" Haha! Then my mom said, "Natatawa kanina mommy niya sainyong dalawa. Nagkakahiyaan pa daw kayo. Sabi niya sakin, may gusto daw kasi yun dati sa'yo." NYAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! =)) Natawa na lang ako. [/END FLASHBACK]

Too many flashbacks, eh? Haha. So yeah, I'm right. The moment I entered the room, he was the first one I saw. =)))))) NYAHAHHAHA! I was like, "=o" HAHA! Homaygallywow. But of course I didn't let my reaction show! Haha. Then when my brother(3rd) told the story of how Kuya X's dad died and all, he mentioned about the brothers and he saw me kind of smiled a bit. It's not even called a smile! Haha. Well I reacted a bit and he saw that, and he reacted and smiled at me. Then started teasing me and told my mom and dad about me having a crush on Kuya X's brother before. Haha! And he started telling it to our family friends, those who weren't there in our lives yet during that time. Haha. Then he told me, "Alam ko na birthday gift ko sa'yo Cha! Papakilala kita!" LMAO! And he told it to Kuya X, his bestfriend! Kinilig naman! AMPOPO. But I know they were just tripping.. a bit! Cos with them, sometimes they can really get serious with tripping. Lol. Pero sobrang laughtrip yung itsura nilang dalawa na nagbubulungan and all =)) Lalo na yung itsura nila nung 'kinikilig' sila.I couldn't do anything about it! All I can say is, "Ugh nakakainis ka kuya!" =)) But yeah, it didn't happen. =)) Thhankkkkk God! My face would've looked funny if that happens. :)) Cos I prolly wouldn't know how to react. :)) I saw my former high schoolmate and now college schoolmate at the wake. Shocked ako. :)) I guess they're friends cos they're on the same village. Anyway, the day after my brother told me that Kuya X's brother got shy too. =)) LMAO. And oh, in case you're wondering how he looks now... :"> HAHAHA. Isang napakalaking SHET at OMG lang ang masasabi ko. :"> =))) Getitttt? Haha!

THIS IS A SO LONG POST. T_T Bah. This is what happens when I don't blog for a week. Lol.

Anyway, DESPRIN wasn't that bad. We had our first plate and it was kinda fun. Though I couldn't think of what to draw instantly, it was very challenging. LOL. I didn't get to finish my plate though. I just had it signed by my prof so em gonna pass them next week.

I just figured, the past keep coming to my present. And so my past becomes part of my present and I don't even ask for it. :))

Gah I'm laazy now. Bye.

So. This isn't a good title.

So... LMAO. I'm lazy. :)) But I wanna blog just to keep this blog updated about things. I want to have something to look back to later :] I'm just gonna copy the one I posted in my Multiply. Some of you may have already read it but who cares :)) I'm gonna add some things anyway since I haven't been online for like two days straight! Would you believe? Haha! Yay me! I don't believe it :)) and Im gonna copy the blog I wrote on my MySpace blog but no one reads that so.. :p See how lazy I am :)) Haha! But hey, I edited this! :p

First week of being a sophomore student has been treating me well. I always get to class early and I hope it will stay like that for the rest of the year. :)) Being late can be really stressing. Trust me, I know. LMAO. Last Wednesday and Friday, I only have one class which was ORALCOM for 8:10-9:10 =)) I love the prof, he's soooo... gay! Haha. I think he's still not in the mood to teach so for the first two meetings(WF) so he just talked.. like A LOT about random things. LMAO. :)) It's fun though. He started his lesson kanina and it went well. LOL. It was really fun! He's really funny. Especially his laugh, it's like a villain laugh but in a funny way. Lol, I can't explain it. :))

Lots of things had happened over the weekend. After the first day of class, everything pretty much went to normal. I'd prefer being in school and be my normal self rather than stay at home, be a slob and be sad. :)) Cos I noticed that every time I don't have anything to do and I do the same things over and over again like a routine, makes me sad and feel bad. It makes me remember of things way back. I think about a lot of things and sometimes it makes me crazy.. in a bad way. :)) But not really bad, it just makes me really sad and nostalgic :]]

Sooo yeah, I had my first night class last Thursday. It was tiring waiting for that class cos we don't know what we should/could do in that 6-hour break. Thursday classes are really whoa cos I was in school from 8am to 8pm. Time went really slow that day. :)) Night class yo :]] It's BASICOM and I'm with my friends anyway so it's alll good. There are only like 18 of us in the class and I basically know everyone except for four people. :]] But it was fun, first meeting was but I don't know about the coming weeks. I'm looking forward to it though.





Pictures are from Cerisse. All in between BASICOM and after class. SDA building yo. :]] Tahimik at walang matambayan. :[ Unlike in Main, there's Plaza V. and Study Area. And other places. Malayo din sa mga kainan like KFC, Mcdo and Jollibee. And UM. And.. yeah. :]] I miss the Main building! Lol. But I really missed Taft! LOL.

I also had my first Saturday class which I totally had a hard time accepting. :)) But I had to take it or else I will be underload and I don't want that. It was okay though since I know a lot of people there and the class will be less boring since it is History of Art and Design. :)) And it was like the class was in an aquarium! :)) Since SDA's classroom designs are different but in a good way I think, uhh.. architecturically(whoa what a word! Where the hell I got that? Imbento! Haha.), we were in the classroom where one side is glassed. So people from the outside can really see us. :]] Butttttttttt, the prof wasn't there! We waited for one hour just to make sure cos after that it will already be a free cut. We all went for that 3-hour class and there's no proffff! And to think I only had one class for that day! Sayang sa gas :))

In other news, I'm turning a year older tomorrow! So well, what do I think about it? Nothing really. Nothing much will change anyway. I mean, I will just turn a year older but I will still be me :)) It's not like I'm gonna transform into a whole new human being or something, right? I will still go to school tomorrow. I will still be crazy and nice(Haha! But it's true! =p Right? Haha). I will still have the same crazy laugh and I will still be cute. HAHA! =)) Because if I won't be, I won't be Cha. :]] We'll be going to TriNoMa tomorrow to have dinner and I will be celebrating my birthday on Saturday with my HS friends I think and if ever, family friends. So yeah. I guess when you get older, you really don't care what will be given to you although you hope! LOL. Well that's just me. I just want my 17th birthday to be a happy one. And that'll be enough. :]

And oh, I was scared in my P.E. class awhile ago cos don't know people there, that's what I thought. And it's not like I'm scared of other people, it's just that I'm scared going out of my comfort zone. I'm working on that though. So my friends went with me and luckily, I know a few people, we're not close though, they're just familiar faces and one was one of my blockmates in my class last term. So I just had to be friendly. :)) And so I talked to my high school classmate's friend, who has a different major as mine, but might as well talk to her since I noticed she didn't know anyone from the class too. Good thing I remembered her :)) And my prof was my prof in PEFORTS(Basketball) back in 2nd term and he remembered me :)) So I guess it won't be that bad. :p I went back to the SDA building by myself(and I'm proud! Haha cos I'm used to have someone with me) and I found my brother sleeping in the lobby. ROFL. No kidding! He was sitting there and his mouth was slightly open and people were beside him but he didn't care at all. LMAO. Nakakahiya! I just laughed at him LOL. And I went up to get parking tickets and anyone from SDA would agree that the elevator comes in like 48 years so I had to wait for almost 15 minutes or so just to get on a not so full elevator. :)) So he had to wait again. He thought I only had one class! :)) So we left school and I persuaded him to go to National Bookstore since I need to buy something. And we're both hungry so we ate. :)) So yeah.

So far, I like my classes. There's only one class left which I haven't met the prof cos classes started last Wednesday and tomorrows Tuesday soooo...... ye. :] You get it. :))

Current LSS: Thunder by Boys Like Girls

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know youre unlike any other?
Youll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I dont wanna ever love another
Youll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder

Who loves Marié Digby?

I'm lazyyy so I copied this from my Multiply.

I watched Marié Digby's live webcast concert at DeepRockDrive.com! ULTIMATE FRONT ROW SEAT!!! Hahaha. Loved it. It amazed me how DeepRockDrive was able to do the webcast thing without me even lagging. Well except for some times when my lan cable got unplugged. BAH. But it was okay. I was so excited :)) Hahaha. I slept earlier then woke up, only had 3 hours of sleep. Then took a nap for like 30 minutes while waiting.

I love Marié Digby! I love her songssss! Don't youuu? :] She's so pretty. Very beautiful inside and out. Very talented. Yayyy. Her album's on my list. I rarely buy albums nowadays but if the album is worth the price then why not. So yeah. It lasted for an hour. I really felt the communication! THOUSANDS of people were there I guess. I saw Peter Park's(the guy who won Marié's contest) shout out too. Haha. Very cool. Aweeee-someee! :]] There were lots of Filipinos too. I typed in "come to the Philippines!" or was it Manila? Hahaha. But anyway, Marié read it! HAHA. If it's me or not me, still at least she got the message from her Filipino fans. :p I hope to see more live webcast concertsssss! :D

I screencapped like crazyyy. Lemme share to you one screencap of the concert.





If you wanna see more, go to my Multiply account. It's only for contacts though so if you're not on my contacts, you won't be able to see it. Sooo! Add me! :]] Haha.

I had this set list copied from Anna's multiply.

SET LIST:
1. Fool
2. Say it again
3. Stupid for you
4. Umbrella
5. Miss invisible
6. Spell
7. Girlfriend
8. Paint me in your sunshine
9. Better off alone
10. Beauty in walking away
11. Unfold

Yay I thought she won't sing UNFOLD anymore! Glad she did! Love that song! :] Miss Invisible as well! I loveloveloveee her songs! :]

And as you can seeee.. I have a new layout! Haha. I like it. Because it has Marié Digby on it and as well as the lyrics to her song which I love, Say it Again. :] It's so pinkkk. LOL. I re-did this layout cos I realized I didn't like the first version much. This is wayyy better. What do you thinkkkk? :] I upped this a little late. YA. A "little". Haha. I said I'll upload this on the 19th but I did it on the 20th. :]]] It's cos I went out. YAY. I'm glad! I had a life today. Hahaha. Went somewhere, then to National Bookstore Quezon Avenue, then to BK stayed there for like 3 hours, then went to fetch my dad at the airport. I got home at 1am. I didn't think I'd come home that late so yaaa. K. :]]

OHHH. I'll make this a short one cos tomorrow's school already! Can you believe it? CAN YOUUUU? Schoolmates? Haha. SHOCKS. Too early. And I will go somewhere later. I hafta go to sleep early! I have lots of undone things that I need to do. SO YA. :]

Oh btw, I'm not using Haloscan for my comments anymore. I'm using the Blogger one. :]

I'm in love!

I just finished coding my next layout which will be up on the 19th. I was supposed to upload it today but just to make this layout up for one month, I moved it to the 19th. Just before class starts. :]




That's just a teaser of what my next layout will look like. :]] It's Marie Digby's Say It Again. Oh I just remembered, I have a free seat on her webcast concert on the 19th 6AM(Philippine time). Didn't notice that :p

Anyway, 3 days till school starts. T_T OMGZ. My summer has been boring. If not for some late night DVD series marathons with my brothers, my summer would have been ultimately boring. And also, of course, if not for Hana Kimi and Wu Chun, it would have been ultimately uber boring. LOL. Wu Chun is my pretend boyfriend. LOL. I guess he is everyone's pretend boyfriend.


With that face?! With that effin' pretty face? Who wouldn't want him as a pretend boyfriend? Hahahaha. Whatever his face looks, he still looks pretty. :]]] I'm in love! Hahaha! Sobrang takaw niya and vain! Iloveit!♥ Haha! :] I will feature him in one of my layouts someday. Maybe after my next layout. :] I love Asian dudes with cool hair and fashion style! Well, someone like him. Haha. :D AYAYYY. Kung may ganyan lang dito oh.. OMGZ. *faints* Hahaha. Jiro Wang is cute too. I love it when he smiles. And so as Danson Tang. :D Pretty faces. But like what my former schoolmate said, "The probability of meeting someone life him in our ordinary lives is...What do you think?" So what do you think? :]] Hahaha. I guess someone like Wu Chun will just forever be a dream, yes? I mean he's like every girl's dream guy. LOL. I mean, no not 'every'.. but you get what I mean. :] Well, you do, do you? Haha. :]]

Anyway, I'm just watching YouTube videos about Hana Kimi, Ella/Chun, Fahrenheit. Anything about them. LOL.

I hope I won't stay up too long here since we'll be going somewhere later. I'm having sleep problems. Yesterday, I slept at around 12mn. I woke up at 3am because the freakin' controller fell from my bed and it made a really loud sound. AGH. And after that, I couldn't sleep anymore. T_T I hate it when that happens. -__-

SO YEAH. K BYE. :]

You'll always be a fart to me.

Heyyyy! Just some updates. :] So it's exactly 8 days before school starts! YAY! Hello, sophomore year! Deym, time flies by reallll fast. It's gonna be all school work now beybbb! At least I have something to worry about and think about and yeah. I guess I like it better when there's school. I got things to do and I don't bore myself. I dunno but since college, I just want to go to school. Hahaha. Srsly! You know during HS when classes get suspended cos of some typhoons or other reasons, I get really happy cos there's no school. But now? I feel otherwise. Haha. Weird. But I think that's good. I love learning new things. Better yet, I love education. :]

Anyway, this one month summer has been treating me so-so. I felt different things. I felt melancholic, nostalgic, happy, and other kind of stuff. I, once again, learned new things. I guess that's something inevitable in life. Of course. We're here to learn, right? And those things we learn make us discover who we are. I've just realized a lot of things. Like, how things can change especially feelings, like 7 years ago you may not like someone but 7 years later you realize you feel something 'different' towards that someone; how you can terribly miss someone so bad(yeah, terrible na bad pa haha); how you can feel really stupid after getting mad angry about something and the next day you realize you were just totally carried away of what happened; how you get sad when you think that that someone was once yours but now is living another kind of life far from yours; and other things I can't put into words. There are just some things that's fairly impossible to happen now yet you still hope that those things will come back to the way it used to be. It sucks like that.

Also I have come to think that no matter what, no matter how many years have passed or how many things may have changed, I will always be that person's number one. I will always be that first. I should be thankful that we're still friends. And I'm glad that that person still keeps me updated about the things happening in his life. If you think this is some 'ex', no it's not. I haven't had any boyfriend since birth, it's just some 'past' thingy. OY. HAHA. Boink, drama much? LOL. I don't wanna elaborate more, that person MIGHT read this. Stupid, I gave him the URL of this blog. Who knows, haha, I just don't want that person to know YET. If ever I plan on telling that person someday. Maybe. So yeah, I just never thought I'd feel like this, that's why. LOL.

So enough of that. :p I went to school yesterday to get an adjustment form and a deferred payment plan. My course adjustment schedule is on the 16th, Friday! OMGZ. Cerisse and I doesn't have the same schedule! I should've went to school last Friday! BAH. I'm gonna add one subject since I'm underload and I don't want that. The only schedule I saw that will fit my already encoded sched is the Tuesday&Thursday sched for CATHWOR(Catholic Worship) subject which is. 2:40-4:10.... OMGZ. I just realized that it doesn't fit at all! HAHAHAHA. I thought it was a one day schedule. DEYM. WHAT A BUMMER. I have a Tuesday class 2:45-5:45! I just checked my sched again, OMGZ. WTHWTHWTH. Cerisseeeee, what naaaa? :o Take FREHAND? Hahaha. SHOCKS. SHOCKERRRR. Mannnn. :]]]]]] Why didn't I check my sched earlier? Stupid! :)) Grr. Okay, wait, imma calm myself down. Haha.

So yeah. I didn't know that yesterday was the FOP(Frosh Orientation Program)! Haha. I went and I didn't know. I wanna be an orientor next year for incoming frosh. It's fun really! Haha. Oh well. My mom and my brother went inside the SDA building, by the way. Haha. My brotha parked in the carpark, LOLZ. The guard asked him, "Estudyante po?" He said, "Graduate na." HAHAHA! Too bad I wasn't able to like tour them around since we're going somewhere after. Maybe on Friday. They said they'll just stay in the cafeteria. And oh yessss I got to wear slippers inside the SDA building! Hahaha. Slippers are banned inside our campus. If you get caught, uh-oh, hello Disciplinary Office! I got caught once in the main building. Bah. :]] Never wore slippers since then :]] After school, we went to my brother's school since he'll get a form to get his Transcript of Records and Diploma. He just graduated last March so I'm the only one left in the family studying. Yayyy. Then we ate at KFC then went to Ortigas to fetch my brother's girlfriend from work.

AND we got home at around 10pm! WTH. It's sooooo traffic! We were in the QC Circle at around 7pm? But we were almost there for like an hour! I just slept. Haha. It's prolly because of the transport strike. People were walking in the streets, bunch of them! Walang masakyan. Yay. To think it's raining, so hassle! I think it's good that I haven't been in front of the PC for one whole day. Natiis ko. Hahaha.

Anyway that's it for now. I'm trying to figure out why I can't view blogspot sites. Google keeps on telling that it's "404 FORBIDDEN". WTH? Some virus crap daw. Blah. Why do you think it's like that? Grabe, napahaba nanaman post ko. Betta get going before this gets longer than this already long one, haha. :]

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you’ll be with me
and you’ll never go

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You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely

A blessed day.

Last April 23, we celebrated my Dad's birthday in our new house. Along with that is the House Blessing. So at around 10-11am, the priest arrived and after the house blessing, he ate with us. Mahaba-haba nga ang sermon niya. Haha. But it was really really nice. It was nice to bond with my family like that. The priest also told us about the Philippines, why our country is like this, etc etc, and how there is still hope for our country to rise up. Everything that's happening in our country now are just challenges. It's up to us how we're going to conquer all those challenges. The government is the one that leads, guides and controls our country, but it is really us, the people, who will make our country a better place. And how are we going to do that? Go back to where everything started, family. The family is the first school, first church, first everything. That's why family matters a lot. I have learned a lot from just one day, one day. And I love it. :)

Later on in the afternoon, our pastor friend from Cornerstone Christian Church dropped by to give the cake to my dad and he prayed us over. It was really touching. My dad cried. So as my brother, Kuya Carlos. I was nearly in tears, and so as my mom. I never felt God more than that day. I felt really blessed. Who could ever thought that that day would be that blessed? First birthday on our new home, I can feel God's presence more than ever. Pastor Fred said that "your greatest wealth is the relationship with your family." True enough. I cannot ever forget that line. He also said that no matter how many challenges had come into our lives and how many things there were that's lost and left behind, God will give us even more than what we lost. Proverbs 24:16 says, "a righteous man falls seven times, and rises again"/"No matter how often honest people fall, they always get up again; but disaster destroys the wicked." I know how much things aren't the same as they were before and how many mistakes have been made in the past, but we're almost getting to the way it has been before, only that we're coming up as better people for the betterment of everyone, especially our family. Family is priceless.

That day, I was being sad because of something or rather someone. But after everything that has happened during that day, I had no reason to be sad at all. Because I am very blessed. I am very grateful and thankful that I am with my family. And they're there for me, we will always have each other. And that friend I was being sad about, will also have my back, no matter what.

Well, some of the people who reads my blog knows who that person is.

You know this past few days, I've been... I don't, I can't explain how I'm feeling really. I just know that I miss someone. Period. And it's just that no matter how much you do things, how much you occupy yourself doing a LOT of things, in the end, the pain just comes back again. The feeling and the thinking is still there. And it really sucks. Sometimes I wish I could just sleep forever. Well no, not really, but it's in sleep that I'm peaceful and have nothing to think about. Maybe this will pass, just maybe. Maybe because it's summer and school's not on the way and yeah. Sigh. Why am I feeling pain? Why am I being sad? Well it's just because reality keeps slapping me in my face. Yes yes, it does. But what can I do? It's reality, I need to deal with it.

See, last night I turned off the PC earlier than what I used to, but I can't sleep and I don't want to yet. So I went to my brother's room. Nakipagkulitan. Kumain. Nag-exercise. Palakad-lakad, pabalik-balik. Then my brother asked me, "Cha? Musta?" and how the usual me would say, "Okay lang." Then tries to look okay. I just wanted to take that feeling away, and I can't explain WHAT feeling that is. I played the guitar, asked my brother what song is easy to play, he told me the chords of Always Be My Baby and there, I played it. Turned on my pc again, played it over and over. Searched for the chords of Realize by Colbie Callait, Say it again by Marie Digby and all that. My fingers hurt. But it was fine. As long as I don't feel that feeling. But after everything, it's just didn't work. It's still there. So I went to sleep at 4am. Again.

I just hate how I'm always like that. Whenever I feel something that would make me ultimately happy, I always hold it back. I always hold it back. And what does it get me? It pains me. I'm always scared to get hurt. I'm always scared to be happy. Cos every time I'm happy, I always think that there will be something that will make me sad. Gah, I don't know. I just.. blah.

Anyway, on the lighter side(lolz), I kept thinking about this conversation I had with my brother's ex. She asked me what will I do after I graduate, then I said, "job?" She said, "further studies?" Yes, I want to. But you know how life is hard nowadays. I want to go study in another art school outside the country to get a second degree or masters or whatever you call that. I just love education. I love to learn. But she said, that she thinks I can do it. And she will continue to believe in me. She's going to the U.S. later this year to I think, study again. She's in Singapore right now, studying as an Economics major. How cool is that? She said she'll help me get financial support when I really want to and I'm serious about it. And last night, I searched for the top art schools in the U.S. and I looked into The Art Institute of California and the Academy of Art University. Those are both in California, Los Angeles and California respectively. But after much surfing in both websites, I decided that I want to go to the Academy of Art University! LOLZ. But what the hell, can I ever do that? I was so overwhelmed last night when I saw all that. I don't know though. It's not a crime to dream, is it? Dream on, Cha. Dream on.

Anyway, that's about it. Thanks for everyone who commented on my layout and previous blog post! :D Much loves. :)

An-April-19-blog-post

IT'S OFFICIALLY VACATION TIME FOR ME!

Been a long long time since I went online. For almost like a month I think? So I have here a little run through of what's happened in my life for the past month:

1. We moved in to our new house in Fairview. It may be far from my school, but heck, who cares? I'm gonna make sure my sacrifices will be all worth it. Glad I'm not moving in to a new school!

2. Since we moved in to our new house, we have had delicious foods! :)) As in, seriously! I have noticed that even before but my dad said it just yesterday. Thank God for the blessings!

3. Since we moved in to our new house, our internet's bummed so I wasn't able to go online. SMARTBRO sucks. SMARTBROken. Lol. When our account expires, we'll surely gonna change our connection. We should.

4. Frosh year is over! Oh yes! I'm not a frosh anymore but a sophomore! Can you believe that? Cliche as it may sound but time flies by really fast. It's so overwhelming. So many things to do, so little time. But it would help me be responsible in managing with my time, right?

5. I passed all my subjects this term! THANK GOD! I THANK GOD SO MUCH 100x!!! You know, I was worried a hell lot about my grades in two subjects. Business Math was okay until our prof told us our standings before our final exams. I had to get half of my final exam to pass! Our Final exam only had 2 questions, all worth #(forgot) points.

And my World Literature class, well I was so worried about this. In her[my prof] class, I don't really participate. I wasn't active. And to top off, I was always late. I knew I had a low midterm grade that I didn't know. So I really studied for her final exam. It was the last resort I had to prove to her that I deserve a passing grade, at least. I knew I didn't give my best this term, especially in her class. I had to prove to her that I am so much better than what she thinks. Because I know I am. I just didn't exert much effort to make her see that, and as well as in my other subjects. I knew I wasn't in my best form. I guess I had to be in the danger zone first to make me realize how I was and how I did. I should have done my part at the start of the term, but I didn't. I ultimately learned the hard way.

And because of that, I ultimately promised myself that I will do much much better next time. Better than what I had been, better than what I am. I hope I will be able to do that, and not just eat my words at the end of the term, again asking God for another chance to make things right. No, I hope not. God might not give me another chance to do so because I knew I had the chance already and didn't use it well.

6. GRADES GRADES GRADES.
COMSK2x - 3.0 Our Project Plan proposal presentation went really well and I worked hard on my video resume.
PETWODA - 3.0 Heck, why the hell my grade is 3.0? It's the only P.E. class yet that I wasn't able to get a 4.0! To think it was Dance! WTF? I wasn't able to get it myself so I wasn't able to question her about it. Anyway, it's fine. Well, no it isn't. I believe I deserve more than a 3.0, maybe a 3.5 will do. But I don't know.
PHILOMA - 2.5 Well I guess I deserve this grade. :) Hooray for one PHILOMA prof for the cheats! I guess everyone knew the answers for the matching type and true or false(alternate answers).
RECONSE - 3.5 WHOA! I was surprised to know that I got 3.5 for this subject. Not that I don't deserve it, I just didn't expect to get this grade. I got 3.0 for the midterms and I managed to get this. How cool was that? :))
FILIP13 - 2.5 It's kinda okay. I got a 3.0 for the midterms and I guess I deserve this one. Maybe I didn't get a high score in my final exams.
BMAT2x- 2.0! That would be equal to 80-84. Would you believe mehnnn?! I was just praying for a 1.0! A passing grade! But I got a 2.0 instead! How ultimately cool was that man? :))
WORLITE- 1.5 Okay, I am happy that I got this grade at least! I got a missed call from my prof and that meant that I need to pass a poster-like work to pull up my grade. I will make an artwork about one story we discussed and how I understood it in class. A catchy by-line is required too, just like what we did in our poster activity in class. I had it printed on A4 and had it laminated. My friends were miss called too. We were really scared. I rushed the poster I did 'cause my prof called at around 12:30-1:00-ish in the morning and I was already asleep then. I woke up at 10:30am! And my phone was bombarded with my friends' text messages. I called them and they were already at school. So I made the poster for like 2 hours and arrived at school at around 3pm. So yeah, we waited for like an hour because our prof wasn't there yet. I thought I'm going to be there for only 30 minutes but add an hour on that, so my brothers waited for me at McDo for about 1 and a half hour. Oopsie. :)) My prof told me that I passed the final exam and told me that maybe I studied for the exam :)) Well I did, really. So yeah. Here's my work btw. :o

Again, it's a vector. The first vector is recycled. The second and third one, well, I got their pictures from my brother's wedding. LOL. I've been addicted to doing vectors lately. I did it for only two hours 'cause I was rushing so it's not so good.

7. My dad's birthday is coming up! It's on Wednesday. It turns out that Ate Lhyn[my cousin's wife] and Ate Gem's[family friend] daughter is also celebrating their birthday on the same day! So we're gonna celebrate it here in our new home! That would be really fun! First birthday on our new house. The house blessing will be on that day too. I'm gonna post a lot of pictures if I can take a lot. :)

8. NEW LAYOUT! How do you like it? :)

So that's it.

I missed a lot in the web world and as well as in the blogosphere. I missed reading your blogs! I'm surely going to keep up with everything. Ohyay.

Not-so-holy-week.

Last night was the most FUNNEST night I ever had since I don't know when! SRSLY! It was an unexpected get-together, or night out as you may call it.

But anyway, I'm going to start off with my day. First, Mom, Dad and I went to Fairview to check when we can already move some things in the house. Probably, by Monday we can start moving things already since maybe by that time, some parts of the house are already fixed. They said we should already be there on the 31st. I am soo excited! Yep, I am excited now. Haha. Man, it's a lot of work! I saw my room too! It's bigger than my room now. Hooray! I can't wait to decorate and design it, lol. I hope they would allow me to paint it with the color I want to. The only thing I can say about the house is, WOW. I can now imagine the Christmas Party we could have there. We can run around for the relay game. :)) Sobrang init din kahapon, grabe. Mabaliw na yata ako dun. Lakad lang ako ng lakad, paikot-ikot. Hinintay pa kasi namin si kuya Raymond kasama si Ate Therese. When they came, we toured them around the house. Then after, we went to San Benissa to check out Ate Therese's condo unit. We just saw the model unit since the way to her building is still under construction. Ang ganda sobra sa San Benissa! Spanish-inspired nga. I felt like I was in Spain! SRSLYYYY! It was a cute community. Haha, cute. :)) Parang American way of living. Bumili pa kami ng inumin since sobrang uhaw na kami at napakain pa tuloy ng La Paz Batchoy. Haha. We left around 6-ish.

Tapos, napag-alaman kong pupunta pala sila Kuya sa SM para manood ng sine. Ayun, napasama tuloy ako. We watched Meet the Spartans. Laugh trip. Pero di ko masyado nagustuhan na as in super. Di namin naabutan yung first 20 minutes kasi kumain pa kami sa Pizza Hut. But it wasn't the real reason though. Ate Therese and I went to the comfort room which was on the 3rd floor. After, we saw this big black circle and we got curious what's it for. It was asking which is faster to go down, 25-cents, 1-peso or 5-peso. LOL. Promise, sinasayang lang nila ang pera niyo. :)) 5-peso was fastest. LOL. Parang sira lang. Law of gravity chuva daw, ngek. :)) Because of that, we were late. :)) So then, we left SM at 10-ish.

Kuya Jeff invited Ate Therese and Kuya to go to their gig at Mugen, Metrowalk even before we got at SM. I think we weren't supposed to go at Mugen though, but my brother got pissed about something that I don't know what. So we went. I was like, WHAT?! :)) I was wearing a shirt, capri pants and slippers. It was really unexpected. I said, if I would have known that they were going there, I wouldn't come. But after everything, I take that back. I KNEW I SHOULD BE THERE. :)) I would definitely miss the half of my 2008 if I didn't go!

Sobrang sobrang fun talaga! Lahat kami parang 1st time ulit to go in a bar(with bands ah) after we don't know when. Ako siguro nung... basta di ko na matandaan, alam ko simula nung wala na sila kuya. I was surprised that Kuya Carlos was there with them too. Haha. So lahat kaming magkakapatid nandun(except for Kuya Ian of course, 'cause he's in Davao). Wudyubeliv. Along with, Ate Gem, Ate Lhyn, Kuya Sonny and Kuya Ces. So there were 8 of us.

Sa bands kasi, usually 3rd set sila nagpapa-jam. Laging sinasabi ni Kuya Jeff na may magj-jam from Pure Instinct simula pa nung 1st at 2nd set nila. Syempre, na-excite naman kaming lahat kasi sobrang na-miss namin silang mag-perform! Sinasabi ko lagi kay Ate Therese during that time, "Nakakamiss yung ganito." Kasi laging sila(Pure Instinct) ang pinapanood namin 'pag lumalabas. Ngayon, sila na ang kasama namin pag nanonood.. ng ibang banda. :(

Third set came and the jamming started. OHYE. Nung tinawag na si Kuya Amon to play the guitar, and another guy, a Korean, to play the bass, we were all like screaming our lungs out! SOBRA. Lalo naman nung nag-perform na si Kuya. TALAGA NAMAN MEHN. Hataw! They played Play that Funky Music. OMG GRABE TALAGA. FANS CLUB KAMI! :)) After, sigawan talaga! Si Ate Therese ang haba ng hair. Hahaha. Sabi naman ni Kuya Amon, napansin daw niya nung adlib na, bumagal daw siya. Taeng bumagal yan, ayos nga yung pag-perform niya dun. Bumagal pa ang kamay niya sa lagay na yun. Sayang hindi niya ginawa yung exhibition na ginagawa nila ni kuya Ian, yung ilalagay sa likod yung gitara. IDOL TALAGA! It would have been better though if both of them were there, but of course it's not possible.

Akala namin yun na, tapos na, na si kuya Amon lang ang magj-jam. Pero syempre I was hoping na magj-jam pa si Kuya Sonny at Kuya Carlos. When the band said na one more jammer to go, sumigaw si ate Therese, "SONNY! CARLOS!". Sabi ni Kuya Jeff, "Oo, two more pa pala." Sigawan kameeee. :)) Hahaha. Tapos nung tinawag na sila, we were telling them, "Go na! Goooo!" E si Kuya Sonny medyo wala na sa katinuan, haha. Hindi naman, kaya naman, sabog lang siya. :))

Pag-akyat nila ng stage, kwento nila kuya, di daw nila alam anong song yung ip-perform nila, tapos nagulat na lang sila na Bring Me to Life yun. Haha. Edi go. SOBRANG sigaw kami ng sigaw dun! Ang ingay namin! Kami yung pinaka-maingay. Haha. Tapos si Ate Therese sumisigaw, "Magbalikan na kayo! Wala na akong gimik!" :)) Totoo naman e, simula nung wala na sila, hindi na talaga nakakalabas. Sobrang tuwang-tuwa at masayang-masaya ako after. Nag-hug pa nga sila pagtapos e. :D Aw. Sayang hindi kumpleto. Pero okay lang, sobrang masaya naman kasi after how many months, nakita namin sila ulit mag-perform! Si Kuya Jeff nga, hindi siya kasama sa song, nakaupo lang sa tabi, di niya napigilang mapatayo at pumunta rin ng stage e. At some point, I knew they will miss what they were doing for almost 12 years of their lives. And we, also missed them. Sayang kasi talaga. They're still young and they're great at what they do. And with just that, everything fell apart. It was really really sad. I had a hard time accepting that 'cause all my life(srsly!), I've been used to seeing them perform a lot. They were my idols. I seriously don't know how they do it, they're really really good. And I'm not telling this because they're my brothers/cousins. It's because they really are good. Sobrang proud ako tuwing nakikita ko silang mag-perform. Sabi nga ni Kuya Sonny nun, "Nasa dugo natin yan 'tol". Every Wednesday tumutugtog sila Kuya Jeff dun. Btw, Kuya Jeff is my brother's ex-bandmate and Kuya Amon's high school friend, bestfriend. Sabi nila, dapat daw every Wednesday ganun. Then kami yung Wednesday group. :)) Haha.

I can't wait to see them perform again. I plan to make them perform on my debut next year, if ever possible. I would ultimately love that. :D And at last, kagabi rin! NAKITA KO NA RIN SUMAYAW SI KUYA CARLOS! :)) WAHAHAHA. :)) After the jamming kasi, the band played dance songs. Una, nakaupo pa si kuya dun, then I don't remember sinong humila sa kanya para tumayo, then ayun, napasayaw na rin. OHYE. :)) Hahaha. Ang saya, lahat kami sumasayaw nun. Since walang dance floor, dun sa may table. Haha. Nakahilera kami dun na para bang kami lang yung tao. We went home at around 3 to 4-ish. Sumabay ako kila Kuya Ces since andun si Kuya Carlos, they dropped us off at Quezon Ave. since his car was there, wala kasi siyang kasama mag-drive pauwi so ako na lang. Nag-drive thru pa kami sa jollibee. When we got home, mom and dad was awake. :)) Tapos ayun, nagkwentuhan kami sa kwarto nila while eating. I love those moments, it's priceless. :) These moments are priceless. :)

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Btw, thanks for all your comments guys. <3 style="font-style: italic;">3 and a half years lang dun, tri-sem kasi. Mag-2nd year na siya e, konti na lang graduate na." And I was telling my mom when we were in the house, "Napalayo naman ako." She said, "Okay lang, kelangan lang maaga gumising." So yeah. YEEE. :D

Can I chill for a minute?

March 14, last year high school pa lang ako. Finals namin. Ayon sa aking 2007 planner.

March 15, birthday na pala ni Val ngayon, HAPPY BIRTHDAY VAL! :) Finals pa rin namin.

Fast forward to today..
College ako. Hindi pa namin finals, hindi pa rin magtatapos ang school para sa 'min. Madaming gagawin. Seryoso, sobrang busy these past few days. Actually weeks ago pa sobrang dami nang gagawin. Ngayon ko lang na-realize. Tipong ayoko nang humarap sa computer kasi hindi ko na magagawa yung mga iba kong gustong gawin, like movie marathons, TV watching, kulitan with my family, and stuff like that. Kapag nasa harapan kasi ako ng PC, nagiging anti-social ako. Pag may ginagawa ako dito, super focused talaga. Kaya nasisira mata ko e. Haha. At hindi na ako makatayo sa kinauupuan ko. Swear, ganun. Pero hindi pwedeng hindi akong humarap sa PC. Dahil MMA ang kurso ko at forever computer-related ito. Kelangan ko ring i-check araw-araw ang mail ko, ang online shop namin, ang multiply ko(dahil napag-iiwanan na ako, marami pa rin akong hindi nauupload), ang friendster ko(dahil ayoko naman na late reply sa comments), at ang blog ko.

Buti Friday ngayon, nakanood ako ng TV. Napanood ko ang ending ng Marimar. Grabe yun oh, pinagkagastusan talaga. Ang pretty talaga ni Marian Rivera. Haha. Anywayyyy, nagpunta ako dito sa PC para i-edit yung remaining pics nung batchmate ko dati na debut sa 28th. Para wala nang dagdag pproblemahin. Ma-stress pa ako e. LOLz. Pero hindi ko pa rin siya ginagawa. Uh-oh. Dapat kasi natutulog na rin ako ngayon. Kasi maaga pa ako bukas dahil may practice kami for our P.E. Dance on Monday na Tango. And magppractice na rin kami for our Finals which is HIPHOP! Ohyea! I so missed dancing this kaya sobrang natuwa ako nung nalaman kong yan ang finals namin! Hehe. Tapos after the practice, we're gonna continue the shoot for Jamila's debut. This time, video naman. For the last few weeks kasi, puro photoshoots. So video na gagawin namin ngayon. Then yung classmate namin nung high school said na baka may celebration yung kaklase namin ng birthday niya. Di pa namin alam kung meron.

Then on Sunday, my barkada and I will have another bonding moment at TriNoma. We're gonna watch Step up 2, lunch then ayun. We planned on having this every month just to keep in touch. But I said hanggang 4pm lang siguro kasi Palm Sunday at syempre magsisimba kami dba.

Aside from that, meron pang PHILOMA(Philosophy of Man) project na is-shoot, FILIP13(Retorika) song adaption(lol, we chose With You by Chris Brown, my blockmate already made the lyrics), Business Math quizzes to worry about, World Literature classes(pinoproblema namin ang mga stories at poems, oo. haha), COMSK2x(Technical Literature) multimedia resume and project proposal, and uh.. yeah. I think that's pretty much it. It's a lot, I tell you. Plus the Course Approval thingy pa pala! Di pa approved yung enlisted subjects ko kahit na napasa ko na yung requirements sa academic adviser ko. Oh well. Tapos ano pa ba.. basta, yan. Hectic. So, sorry if hindi ako nakakadalaw sa mga blogs niyo. Malapit na rin ang end ng classes(yeah like April 19) so busy talaga. Pero I'm not stressing YET. I hope I won't! Oh well.

I guess all of us are busy. Some update lang. Naaliw ako sa journal na ginawa namin for Filipino for almost a week, everyday! Ayos din pala ang may entry araw-araw. Pero siguro for myself lang? Haha. Wala lang, baka ma-trip-an ko sometime. Good thing there's the Holy Week break! almost 4 days of break. Pero marami pa rin akong gagawin kahit break. Like go to church, celebrate the Holy week and academic stuff. Yeah.

good luck sa 'ting lahat. :) random stuff lang. thanks for those who dropped by! :)