On fire.

You were everything, everything that I wanted. We were meant to be, supposed to be but we lost it.

On Thursday, I was super drained and slept the moment I got home. Friday, I still was kind of drained and I still slept the moment I got home. Saturday, kind of refreshed but still slept the moment I got home. Lmao! :)) I just realized how much I slept for the last 3 days. And how much I crammed.

DUDE I swear I hate cramming! I will never ever ever ever cram a project like that! WTF, I hate how our minds can work during the last minute! We could have done that a week before Thursday but we didn't cos we can't think of anything to put in the Project Brief. :]]]] I hated how my mind was all like squeezed until it wasn't squeezable anymore. =))) I really hope our prof will allow us to revise that! Man. And we still have to think of a concept of how we're going to do the product commercial. Dang, my groupmates and I weren't able to meet awhile ago since one wasn't allowed to go. T_T And we weren't able to do our dubbing project yet which is due on Monday! WTF. I swear, I don't like the feeling of cramming anymore. T_T

Anyway, I woke up early around 5am to go with mom and dad to the airport. We fetched my aunt in the bus terminal and dropped her off the airport. Her flight's at 10am but we were there like 7am. So we ate first and caught up with things. We just rode the taxi going there cos my brother wasn't able to come home last night =))))) And you know what I hate? Everything is too expensive. Especially the gas, man! WTF, 60/liter? You gotta be kidding meee. That could go on like 80/liter! WTH, there'll be no cars in the streets when that time comes! Wag na tayong pumasok! Lmao. But on the brighter side, that would mean less traffic. We went through EDSA and there was no traffic at all! Super less cars! But nevertheless, transportation is a necessity. I mean, you can't walk to the place you need to go to here! Can I walk from Fairview to Taft? No way. That would take 48 years. You can ride a bike or skateboard but not everyone can. And still, it's far.

My dad was interviewing the taxi drivers we had so that was like 3 of them. And all of them were complaining about the gas. Then there would be times when they don't earn enough profit. Gas na nga lang, lugi na talaga sila. That's why there are a lot of taxi drivers forced to choose passengers depending on where they're going to. So it was kind of hard for us to find a taxi from Taft going to Fairview. I was going to suggest to just ride the LRT-MRT then go to Fairview from North Ave. or Quezon Ave. station. But we were lucky enough to find a taxi. Too bad, I thought it would be my mom and dad's first time to ride the LRT-MRT. =))

AND OH. Last Wednesday, I got to ride the LRT-MRT all by myself! WHOO! Hahaha! From Vito Cruz to Edsa Taft, Edsa Taft to North Avenue. My mom did know I rode the LRT-MRT, only that she didn't know that I was alone. She knew I was with a friend. :)) My brother was in on it though. He asked me if I can, then I said yeah. It was about time to try it. Then he'll just fetch me at TriNoMa. I was lucky enough to have found a seat in the MRT and so I was sitting all through out my ride. And there was not much people in the LRT so yeah. :] While I was at TriNoMa, I grabbed the chance to go to Powerbooks and have myself reserve a copy of Breaking Dawn which will be out on August 4. Shoot, I seriously can't wait anymore! And Stephenie Meyer said on her MySpace blog that she'll put up a 'Quote of the Day' down to the day of the release of the book! She doesn't know where it will be put up yet though. But it'll be announced. Ohyay!

Hmm, what else. Oh there, my brother just got home from Ortigas. He went to Enchanted Kingdom cos he jammed to the Streets band who often is Amber's band. Last night, he went to Amber's condo to rehearse songs with the band. And he asked me a favor to download like 15 songs so he can review it. It was like 6 months since he last really played the guitar on stage as a band. :]]]] Sure they were asked to jam to bands whenever we go out but that's just like one song that they already know. Dang, I sure miss them playing. :[ One night we were at Blue Wave and we were all there with my mom and dad, they were talking about putting the band up together again. For even just one day, Saturday or Friday, they can have a gig just for the sake of the old times. I mean, I know they miss it. And they're still so young and very talented! If they stop at once, it'll all be waste. I mean, not really but it's sayang. Everyone they know at this point, they met through their gigs. And those people are like family now. Their girlfriends, wives, best of friends, everyone they met along their way while playing. It's been a very big part in our lives. I've watched them play all my life. I witnessed how much they love playing music. I still feel sad whenever I think of everything that has happened then. But I think it's cool that we handed it all pretty well, at least. I think it made us a lot stronger too and that's a good thing. I think it was a challenge and it made me sad that they gave up at once.

And on that night in Blue Wave, was the first time I drank in front of my mom and dad. Seriously it was so freakin' awkward! :)) Dude I've drank Vodka/Vodka Ice for like I don't know, but many times now. And I've never been drunk in my whole life. Then they ordered me a Margarita. LMAO. My mom tasted it, dang. And said to me that I shouldn't drink it anymore cos I might get drunk. Cos they said it's a 'juice' drink. HAHAHA. I couldn't drink the way I could whenever my parents are not around. But it's not like I drink with my friends, I drink with my family! I often go out with my brothers, cousins, their wives and girlfriends! And I thought that even if I get drunk, it'll be fine cos I'm with my parents. Right? I have a point there right? Haha! Rather than I'm with strangers. I don't get why my mom still treats me like I'm 13 or younger than I am. I'll be turning 18 next year, man! She doesn't want to let go of me just yet. It's not that I don't like how she looks out for me, it's just that sometimes she tend to overact much. She doesn't even want me to commute, what the hell. I know she's thinking of my safety but I'm also thinking of practicality. I mean, I should experience those kind of things. Sometimes it sucks being all locked up in your world all your life. I should learn how to handle things on my own. I don't want to be overly dependent to my parents. I'm really not, but I don't want to come to the point that I am overly dependent on them.

My brother talked to my dad about these things and he understands. My dad is very open to things and he understands. He also wants us to learn and experience things. And I want to, too. Cos I sometimes feel like they make me feel like I'm not responsible enough. My brother understands me on this one, he said he knows how it feels. And it sucks.

Oh well, enough with the rants. I haven't been blogging for quite a while and I kind of miss it. I wasn't even able to do my blog rounds these days. And look at my blog layout, it's all messed up. :)) I'm lazy coding my layouts. And I've been quite addicted to Plurking! :]]]

So yeah, that would be all for now. :)