Thank you God.

sandali na lng
maaari bang pag bigyan
aalis na nga
maaari bang hawakan ang iyong mga kamay
sana ay maabot ng langit ang iyong mga ngiti
sana ay masilip

refrain:
wag kang mag alala
di ko ipipilit sayo
kahit na lilipad ang isip ko'y torete sayo

ilang gabi pa nga lang
ng tayo'y pinagtagpo
na parang may tumulak
nanlalamig, nanginginig na ako

akala ko nung una
may bukas ang ganito
mabuti pang umiwas
pero salamat na rin at nagtagpo

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Wow.
Thanks ha.
Thanks for clarifying things even without saying it.
I get it.

Thank you God. :)

Hey you, it's nice that I met you.
You're nice and you're my friend.
You'll always be.
Buti na lang.

Ang galing talaga ni God.
Sinagot Niya agad yung confusion ko.

But then again, things just aren't the same.
I'm gonna miss those.
Though that was only for a while, it made an impact.
And thanks for making me smile again. :p

Laugh trip pa rin, ha?

Updates. :) July 13, 2007

MIDTERMS ARE ALREADY FINISHED!!! Yeheyyy! :p Hehe.

So ayun, tapos na rin ang projects. Naka-98 kami sa Filipino project namin. O dba, may bunga naman yung pagpuyat ko. :p

Our profs in BibStud and Gepsych already announced our midterm grades kanina. Yung score ko sa Bibstud, 95. Midterm grade ko, 3.5. Gepsych, 93 yata score ko nun. Nalimutan ko na. Midterm grade is 3.0. Oyeaa! Pero midterm grade pa lang naman yan. It won't show in our class card. But it's a big factor kasi it will be added to our pre-final grade equals our final grade. :)

We watched the Battle Royale in Poligov. It's a R-15 Japanese movie. Sobrang gory! :)) Brutal! Yung Battle Royale, game sya. May pipiliin na isang section, pinili sila kasi mino-mock nila yung mga teachers/elders. Tapos dapat isa lang mananalo sa kanilang lahat. So para may isa lang na manalo, magpapatayan sila. Examples lang ng mga scenes dun yung teacher nila hinead-shot ng knife yung isang babae na student sa klase nila kasi nagbubulungan sila. Sapul talaga sa ulo! Yay! Tas isa pa, yung axe na nasa ulo nung lalakeng student. Kamusta naman yun dba. Puro dugo. Yayyy! :)) But we didn't get to finish it. Sa wednesday na lang daw. Since may Recollection kami sa Monday.

Kanina, nilibre kami ni Carlo. So bakit kami ililibre? Wala namang may birthday. Or kung ano man. Ang dahilan lang naman e, hindi sya nakapag-participate sa paggawa ng Filipino project namin. :)) HAHA. Ang mga andun sila Carlo, Rap, Kevin, Mervin, Paul R., Rino, Cj, Pem, Cerisse, at ako. (extra lang sila paul at rino, di namin sila ka-group. haha.) So, una dapat sa YellowCab. Tas nagbago ng isip, sa Mildred's na lang daw sa UM. Binigyan kami ni Carlo ng 500php(para sa aming apat) Nakapila na kami nila Pem, Cj at Cerisse dun tas biglang sinabi na Pizza Hut na lang daw. Super gutom na kami nun, lakad pa kami ng lakad. So, edi Pizza Hut na. Hindi pa kinuha ni Carlo yung 500 nya samin. So tinago namin. :))

Edi order order na. Tatlong pizza ang inorder :)) + drinks + fetuccine ata yun. (na dapat para sa gf ni carlo, e sandali lang sya kasi 2:30 pa ang klase nya at sa Andrew pa ang bldg. nya) Parang nammroblema na si Carlo nun e, wala pa yung bill :)) HAHA. Tas tapos na lahat kumain. Bill na, cheden! mga 1,900+ yung inabot. Aba, crinedit card nalang! Sorry naman sakanya! :)) Haha. Buti na lang may card sya kung hindi.. haha. jinojoke nga namin e kung kinulang ng pambayad, sya ang maghuhugas ng mga plato dun. :)) Ayoonnn. At yung 500.. akala namin malilimutan na nya e.. :)) Hati-hati na sana kaming 5 dun(cj,cerisse,pem,ako at paul). Hahaha. Pero syempre joke lang yun. :p Nakay Cerisse yung 500 nun. Sabi nya sakin, "kunin mo na, tas bigay mo." Akala tuloy ako nagtago! Weh. Hahaha. Tas sinabi naman ni Cerisse na nasa kanya. Haha. Tas di sila umattend ng Poligov.. nag-billiards yata. Tas kami nila Cj, cerisse, pem at kevin.. bumalik sa school. Ayoonnn. Masarap talagang kumain... pag libre! :)) Wahaha.

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Nakita ko nga pala si Kevin B., sa pizza hut kanina! Tinatawag ko, di ako narinig. Haha. At as usual, laugh trip nanaman kami nila Jhem at Camae sa fx kanina. At syempre, bago kami sumakay... bumili muna ng food. This time, KFC naman. Nagsawa na sa mcdo. Hehe. :p

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NOTE: 4.0 ang highest sa grading system namin instead na 1.0. :p

I've lost myself.

I know, after that incident 2 years ago, I have lost myself. It's kinda saddening but it's true. But the good part of it is that I learned through the process. I'm still picking up the remaining missing pieces. I'm just having a hard time finding it.

I don't know if I have changed for the better or bad. Well I guess it's for the better. But there are some things in me right now that's very different from the "me" before.

Nasasabaw nako. When people talk to me with sense, I just can't take them seriously. Is that a problem? Well for me, it is. I hate it. I don't know what to say to them. Especially when they talk to me in straight english. :)) What the hell. Before, I can talk about anything. And can write anything that's been going on in my mind. But now, I can't. Or maybe I'm just taking myself back.

And I keep laughing. Is that bad? Well no, it isn't. Laughing is good. Well at least not by myself. :p I'd look crazy. Haha.

I can't explain or express myself properly. I can't even talk about my emotions. I so keep it to myself. I know it's a bad thing to do. Mahirap yun dba. Baka maloka ako. Haha.

But anyway, it's been a long time since I blogged. And I can tell that blogging helped me a lot. In my writing skills, in telling my stories, in telling what I think and what I feel, in expressing my thoughts and opinions.

Mahirap din pala pag ikaw lang no. It's better to blog this way. I don't wanna blog like this in my multiply. Cause I know the people viewing my site/blog. And it's hard for me to open up. It's better to be left unknown and anonymous. I can handle it better. Hehe.

So... that's it. I hope I can put the pieces back together. And hopefully, someday, will be able to complete the puzzle of my life. It would take a lot of years, even until the day I die. But what I need right now is the "me" that has been lost along the way. It's been pretty rough and difficult.. but I can handle it.

God's with me. He's there to strengthen me.


I hope it will be a wonderful day tomorrow. I have some things boggling in my mind. And what the hell.. the feeling.. pinipigilan. I don't wanna feel it. At least, i don't want to feel it first. I hate to be broken. Nuff with this, I have much to do tomorrow for school.

Long week.

FRIDAY. Campus Stopover '07.

I just got home. So tired. :/ Ayun, may event kanina sa school. It was an ETC event and was aired on 89.9. The bands were Kastigo, Addicted to Venus, Linguahe(?), Moonstar 88, Blue Ketchup, Sandwich and Imago. I forgot the other band.. it starts with "m".. andun si Monty ng Mayonnaisse e. ^_^

So after our class which is Gepsych.. We(sofia, eena, joseph, asha, krystle, cerisse and i) went to eat at House Blends. Kasi syempre magugutom kami nun pag concert na.

Ayun, nung andun na kami sa theater.. andun nanaman kami sa harap malapit sa speakers. Pero masaya naman. Kumonti na yung tao bandang dulo. Sa DV6, mga natira na lang.. ako, asha, cerisse, eena, tring, gerald, markie at chenggay. So kami yung matitibay. Waha. :p

Yung unang band na nagplay is Linguahe(?) then Blue Ketchup.. then nalimutan ko na yung sunud-sunod. Waha.

Moonstar 88. Sing along sa mga songs nila. Kewl.

I really enjoyed Sandwich's performance. I heart Mong Alcaraz. :p Sigaw kami ng sigaw dun. Hottttt. Haha. Tas ang swerte nung naka-jam sa kanila. Kasi naghanap sila ng marunong mag-gitara then they played Sugod. E yung nagvolunteer, bass plinay nya. Ayonn. Syet ang swerte! Ikaw ba naman maka-jam mo ang Sandwich? Kamonnnn. It was kewlll.
Then after was Kastigo. Then, Imago na. Pretty pala si Aia. Hehe. Tas nalaglag yung pic nya sa gitara nung magla-last song na sila tas si Markie yung nakakita. Tas after nun, binigay na lang kay Markie yung pic nya! Huwatttt, kamonnn. haha. :p

Kapagod. Pero fun naman. Sabog si Cerisse, parang nakainom. What more pa kaya kung talagang nakainom na sya.. super sabog na yun. :)) Haha.
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THURSDAY.
As usual, maaga ang uwian namin. 11:10 pa lang, uwian na! Yeyy. We went to G4. Syempre fun kasi 3rd time ko nang makasakay ng Lrt-mrt nun. Haha. Madami kami e. Sofia, Eena, Neela, Tring, Jr, Asha, Cerisse, Cj(humiwalay pagdating dun), Pem, Kevin Chua, Gerald, Jn.. ayun lang natatandaan ko. Tas dun na lang namin nakita sila Chenggay, markie, Paul Ang, Yanna, Mo, Dotay, Andy... etc. Dami.

Kain muna kami sa foodcourt.. syempre sa mura lang. Haha. Tas timezone-ing na. Sila lang, pinapanood lang namin sila. Wala akong timezone card e, ayoko gumastos. Haha. Tas picture picture.. upload ko bukas. Pinanood namin si Andy mag-DDR. Waawww! Perfect or Great madalas! Ang bilis. Waha. Pati si Paul.. nagddrums! Waha. May video ako nun. :p

Mga 3 something kami umalis nila Cerisse dun. Apat lang kami umalis(ako, cerisse, asha, neela).. e pare-pareho naman silang taga-Las Pinas. So babalik pa sila ng Vito Cruz station. Ako.. Quezon Ave. So kamusta naman yun.. nakapag-mrt na ko mag-isa!! Wahaha. Tuwang-tuwa naman ako dba. :p syempre. haha.
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MONDAY.
Pagtuklas Recollection. Contemplation Room. B109.

Parang hindi Reco. :)) Pero ayus naman. Ang sarap lang matulog dun sa Contemplation room. Ang lamig.. tas nakaupo pa kami sa pillows. sa floor. Syempre katamad. Haha. Pero fun naman. :)
..will upload the pics tomorrow.
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Ayun lang. We finished watching Battle Royale kanina. Wowww. Kamusta yun. Hehe. May Battle Royale 2 pa. Pero di na namin papanoorin yun. Tskk. Makahanap nga. :p
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Sabi nya ikaw lng ang mahal
Seryoso sya sa lahat ng pangako sinta
Ikaw lamang hinihintay maghapon
Hanggang maguwian na

May kanta ka pa sa kanya
Yun pala'y kanta mo din 'yon sa iba
Nalaman mo 'di lang pala ikaw
Ang pinaibig nya ha..

Yoohhh.

Pano ba lagyan ng comment ang post? I mean, dba meron dati yung "Post a comment" link after every post. What's the code for that? Does anyone of you know? *parang may kausap ako dba :))* I was using haloscan before, but now I wanna use the Blogger for comments.

Hmm.